Popular Monster (feat. Onlap) - Nick Eyra

Yeah I wake up every morning, with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, but I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressin', or am I suppressin' rage? And my doctor tries to tell me, that I'm goin' through a phase Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay? Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searchin' for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I think I'm going nowhere, like a rat trapped in a maze Every wall that I knock down, is just a wall that I replace I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace How the fuck will I escape, if I never close my case? Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste Is another second sooner to a blessin' I won't take But my therapist will tell me, that I'm goin' through a stage Yeah, it's not a fuckin' stage, I just wanna feel okay Okay, motherfucker, now you got my attention I need to change a couple things, 'cause something is missin' And what if I were to lie, tell you everything was fine? Every single fucking day, I get closer to the grave, I am terrified I fell asleep at the wheel again Crashed my car, just to feel again It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searchin' for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular fucking monster, raahw! Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, yeah Sick and tired of wondering Praying to a god, that you don't believe We're searching for the truth, in the lost and found And so the question I ask is Hrrar, where the fuck is your god, now? Hrah, I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster

Yeah I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase I don't know if it's a phase I just wanna feel okay, yeah I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressing rage? And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase Yeah, it's not a fucking phase I just wanna feel okay, okay Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit everyday And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case? Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage Yeah, it's not a fucking stage I just wanna feel okay, okay Motherfucker, now you got my attention I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missin' And what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine? Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified I fell asleep at the wheel again Crashed my car just to feel again It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular fucking monster Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh We're sick and tired of wondering Praying to a God that you don't believe We're searching for the truth in the lost and found So the question I ask is Where the fuck is your god now? 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster I break down, falling into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster

Don't try and call me I've been away I'm sorry Looking the glass I don't see No sign of sanity and I try hard So you never know I'm down 'til I open up Staying up late at night missing my flight Feels like I'm running in the mud For a second I trust that I'm allowed to lose my mind You're the one who's blind, you live so far behind Say what you wanna say but I don't wanna play Trust me it's not the right day Chase me down, prove me I was right Show me the black hole in your eyes Sucking up our lives (I wish I told you that before) Don't make a sound I'll bear my crown And I'll be fighting through for better days I don't mind if they all walk away Just look around You sold your crown Trapped and caged within these four walls you wonder How you've come to feel so lone Lonely as a cloud, pacing up and down As I trynna recall the last time I saw the sky Each and every cell on my brain has been set on fire Man up, time won't wait for you Save yourself, it's the only real truth Everyone's out just to watch your worlds collide Only then you'll know you've lost your mind You're the one who's blind, you live so far behind Say what you wanna say but I don't wanna play Trust me it's not the right day Chase me down, prove me I was right Show me the black hole in your eyes Sucking up our lives Don't make a sound I'll bear my crown And I'll be fighting through for better days I don't mind if they all walk away Just look around You sold your crown Trapped and caged within these four walls you wonder How you've come to feel so lone Regarde-moi, qu'est-ce que tu vois Un regard noir ou le sang sur mes doigts Oublie tous ces mensonges en lesquels tu crois Qui de nous deux y survivra Don't make a sound I don't mind if they all walk away Just look around Who sold our crown Trapped and caged within these four walls no wonder That we've come to feel so lone