Not For Me - Sarah Proctor

Ballads are being sang But not for me Church bells are being rang But not for me I am without love But I don't doubt love can be Warm and tender for some But not for me Poems are being read But not for me Prayers are being said But not for me I've never known love Won't been shown love, you see And baby there is such a thing But not for me So let all of your singers a-sing But not for me And let all of your church bells a-ring But not for me And if tomorrow All your sorrows should begin Just like mine then you'll cry But not for me No, not me Never for me

Dirty sunrise creepin' in Broken bottles gilled within The room is black; the blinds are drawn I don't remember anything What I've done or where I've been Another night has come and gone This is not for me No This is not for me No This life is not for me No This is not for me No Anymore The Devil smiles and laughs at me Says, "You'll be back; just wait and see You know I've heard this all before" And I said, "You can take your high life in the hills Your cocaine lies and whiskey thrills I don't need you anymore" This is not for me No This is not for me No This life is not for me No This is not for me No Oh The only thing that makes me whole again Is to stand right here before you in the sun Yeah Oh I keep runnin' 'til the very end For the life I've lived Is not the life I want Dirty sunrise creepin' in Broken bottles gilled within In a place I don't belong This is not for me No This is not for me No This life is not for me No This life is not for me No Anymore Yeah You can keep your life I don't want anymore I'm gonna leave it all behind, yeah I'm gonna leave it all behind, yeah I don't want no more Don't want no more Yeah

They're writing songs of love - but not for me A lucky star's above - but not for me With love to lead the way I've found more clouds of gray Than any Russian play - can guarantee I was a fool to fall - and get this way Ah ho alas and awe - so lackaday Although I can't dismiss The memory of her kiss I guess she's not - she's not for me Old man sunshine - listen you Never tell me dreams come true Just try it - and all start a riot Beatrice Fairfax don't you dare Ever tell me she will care I'm certain - it's the final curtain I never want to here from any Cheerful Polly-Anna's Who tell you fate supplies a Mate - it's all bananas It all began so well - but what an end This is the time - a fellow needs a friend When every happy plot Ends with a marriage knot And there's no knot, no (k)not for me

Oh, I've tried At least I think I have Going out on dates Walking holding hands Eating ice cream in the park Oh, I've tried Such a fool I was For making concert plans And booking flights to find Another woman in his arms I'm tired of looking for love In all the wrong places So tired of breaking my heart For all of these faces What if there is no one and only What if that kind of life is not for me It doesn't mean that I hate lonely But what if love is not for me? Not for me Oh, I've tried Thought that I would die From crying my heart out My tears were running dry I lost the faith that I had I'm tired of looking for love In all the wrong places So tired of breaking my heart For all of these faces What if there is no one and only? What if that kind of life is not for me? It doesn't mean that I hate lonely But what if love is not for me? Watching my friends from the sidelines As the years keep passing by I keep wondering if I'll have that The love that I'm supposed to find I'm tired of looking in all the wrong places So tired of breaking for all of these faces What if there is no one and only What if that kind of life is not for me It doesn't mean that I hate lonely But what if love is not for me? Not for me Not for me Not for me What if love is not for me Not for me

Don't wanna say somethin' I'll regret Don't wanna be someone you'll forget So, can you come down to your front door? Got a few thoughts I can't ignore Had these words to say for too long But now you're stood here, it seems they've all gone There were some things I gotta say As much as I'd love for them to change (ooh) I know that it hurts I know I'm gonna make it a little bit worse I couldn't put you first And I know that it hurts just a little bit more But I couldn't lie to you (ooh) I couldn't lie to you (ooh) I know that it hurts I know I'm gonna make it a little bit worse Holdin' onto me like I didn't mean it You're askin' me, did I ever feel it You just seemed happier than me The way you just love so easily (ooh) I know that it hurts I know I'm gonna make it a little bit worse I couldn't put you first And I know that it hurts just a little bit more But I couldn't lie to you (ooh) I couldn't lie to you (ooh) I know that it hurts I know I'm gonna make it a little bit worse I just needed someone I just needed someone to be on my side And I just got a feelin' I just got a feelin' I can never make right I just needed someone to be on my side And I know you won't move on if I stay in your life And I just got a feelin' I can never make right And I just needed someone to be on my side I just needed someone

Maybe I'll sink to the bottom Maybe I'll float on the waves Maybe I'll empty the bottle Maybe I'll be okay I see hope in the shallows But the tide it pulls me away And if I go down with the devil Well, that would be her mistake Waiting for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current Need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waitin' for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current Need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waiting for the breaks I could be lost here forever If I didn't have my faith And if I don't keep it together I'll never take a breath again But I see hope in the shallows In the rush of blood in my veins And if I go down with the devil Well, that would be my mistake Waiting for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current Need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waiting for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current Need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waiting for the breaks Waiting for the breaks Breaks Waiting for the breaks Breaks Waiting for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current Need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waiting for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current Need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waiting for the breaks

You're my mistake, the best one I've made So I hold on tight to something that might never change You pull away so I hesitate 'Cause I'm scared to say I love you if you're not on the same page And I don't wanna get, I don't wanna get close 'Cause I know you're gonna let, know you're gonna let go Oh I don't wanna get, I don't wanna get close To you, I won't So what am I to do If you never choose? More than friends, less than lovers Never mine to lose So what's your excuse? I'm so good to you More than friends, less than lovers Never mine to lose Ain't it a shame I'm obsessed with the sound of you saying my name How it comes out your mouth One of these days, I'll tour the line 'Cause I need somebody who knows that they want me And stays the night And I don't wanna get, I don't wanna get close 'Cause I know you're gonna let, know you're gonna let go Oh I don't wanna get, I don't wanna get close To you, I won't So what am I to do if you never choose? More than friends, less than lovers Never mine to lose So what's your excuse? I'm so good to you More than friends, less than lovers Never mine to lose Never mine to lose Never mine to lose

Maybe I'll sink to the bottom Maybe I'll float on the waves Maybe I'll empty the bottle Maybe I'll be okay But I see hope in the shallows The tide, it pulls me away And if I go down with the devil Well, that would be her mistake Waitin' for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waitin' for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in thе middle Waitin' for the breaks I could bе lost here forever If I didn't have my faith And if I don't keep it together I'll never take a breath again But I see hope in the shallows In the rush of blood in my veins And if I go down with the devil Then that would be my mistake Waitin' for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waitin' for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waitin' for the breaks Waitin' for the breaks Breaks Waitin' for the breaks Breaks Waitin' for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waitin' for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waitin' for the breaks

Maybe I'll sink to the bottom Maybe I'll float on the waves Maybe I'll empty the bottle Maybe I'll be okay I see hope in the shallows But the tide, it pulls me away And if I go down with the devil Well, that would be her mistake I'm stuck in the middle I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I could bе lost here forever If I didn't have my faith And if I don't keep it together I'll never take a breath again Waiting for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waiting for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle Waiting for the breaks Waiting for the breaks I'm stuck in the middle I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle I'm stuck in the middle of the waves I'm lost in the current, need a break I'm stuck in the middle