Kalista - Rajna

Just because I'm in a house doesn't mean I'm at home The cushion on my chair are stained from the blood in my nose I've lost my mind I've lost my mind in your arms Left my brain inside a room, alone, locked in a cage Said if I could find my way out you'd let me escape You kept my mind, and over time It disintegrated Don't you know better Than to lock up a broken heart You think you're clever But I hope everything bad in this world that you've done Eats you up, Eats you up Just because I'm in a house doesn't mean I'm at home The cushion on my chair are stained from the blood in my nose I've lost my mind I've lost my mind in your arms

Kekosongan yang ku rasakan Di dalam hariku yang bepanjangan Di manakah aku yang hilang arah Di manakah aku berada Kalista ku cinta Hanya kepada dirimu Hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu Walau cinta bukanlah satu keberatan untukku Namun bukan masanya untukku Cinta itu bukanlah kita yang menentukan Cinta itu bukan kita yang memaksakan Hanya aku yang mampu tuk menulis Kalista tolong janganlah kau nangis Keberatan yang ku rasakan Ku pegang, kenangan yang ku genggamkan Sunyinya, perjalanan aku ini Gelapnya, pintu hati ini Kalista ku cinta Hanya kepada dirimu Hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu Walau cinta bukanlah satu keberatan untukku Namun bukan masanya untukku Cinta itu bukanlah kita yang menentukan Cinta itu bukan kita yang memaksakan Hanya aku yang mampu tuk menulis Kalista tolong janganlah kau nangis Cinta itu bukanlah kita yang menentukan Cinta itu bukan kita yang memaksakan Hanya aku yang mampu tuk menulis Kalista tolong janganlah kau nangis Cinta itu bukanlah kita yang menentukan Cinta itu bukan kita yang memaksakan Hanya aku yang mampu tuk menulis Kalista tolong janganlah kau nangis

Never been so apprehensive Lying, cheating, but no aggression Found my money in your back pocket Let me have my twenty minutes You're fine mindlessly going inside Thought a couple of nights would be just fine Three years later you're on your own With a list of people who've outgrown ya Had no liquor, but can't remember What you did on the 31st of December Said you could've been drugged that night, but I'm here to tell you that a solo cup has beer inside At a frat party at 12.05 You're fine mindlessly going inside Thought a couple of nights would be just fine Three years later you're on your own With a list of people who've outgrown ya You're fine mindlessly going inside Thought a couple of nights would be just fine Now you're in this hotel room and you've found that even you talk back You talk back to you But if honesty is what you hide, why are you always awake at 12.05?

Our eyes Fell alone in the same way Heavy, out in on the same day Our lungs Hit the ground at the same pace Fell alone, holding hands in the rain I can't breathe with you Even if I wanted to You deserve less than this mess of me My love Prioritized in the wrong places I watched you slip from your own braces Your youth Should've died at younger ages Didn't deserve all my prefaces I can't breathe for you Not when my lungs fill this room You deserve less than this mess of me

The Realization that glass can rip your skin The realization that glass Causes reflection, creates protection But can cut so deep As blood falls down your forearm Can you believe that's you? The red liquid that feels so foreign Is part of the reason you're alive As blood falls down your forearm Can you believe that's you? The red liquid that feels so foreign Is part of the reason you're alive You're my blue ocean You're my You're my blue ocean floor

Turn on deep concentration Before meal meditation Accurate realization I see love in your eyes with a hint of humor Hold an empty plate You've been on my brain You've been on my brain You've been on me Have the same levitation Who's been yours while you've waited? Instantaneous realization I see light in your mind with a sense of filters I can see you've changed, I see you in my face Arms around my waist, you've been on me You've been on me Looking back, I've got chalk on my hands Rinsed off your mural Please don't stand so close to me My lungs aren't the only things that need oxygen Pull your hair back Indigo Adolescence Indigo Adolescence Let me go, I've lost my senses Pull your hair back Indigo Adolescence Indigo Adolescence Let me go, I've lost my senses Looking back, I've got chalk on my hands Rinsed off your mural Please don't stand so close to me My lungs aren't the only things that need oxygen And I don't want to share this oxygen