For Several Years - The Way Of The Hero

Lately, all I feel is pain Feels like my heart doesn't beat the same I wanna give up, and I just feel stuck in a life that I know I cannot change I'm really lonely and feel drained Sometimes I feel like a mistake I just sit and dwell in my trauma My life's full of problems, I feel like I might break Tried to move on, but I just can't Breakdown after breakdown and some days I wish I could run away just to escape And feel at ease even if it means one day Where did my life go wrong? I was a happy teen, and now I'm an adult Who's sad as hell and always at a loss No one could tell I'm drowning in my thoughts I'm still lost tryna find purpose After all these years, I'm still searching Hope you forgive me for being a burden Self-love is something that I'm still learning And I know I lie when I tell you I'm fine 'Cause nobody knows I'm struggling inside Sorry if you see me cry It's just I finally realized It's been several years Since I felt okay, I'm losing my way and It's been several years Since I've been on meds, I still feel depressed and It's been several years Since I felt alive, there's no tears to cry and It's been several years Since I had a friend, they came and went Lately, I feel so depressed Tried to get help, but I'm still a mess I don't ever rest, I guess I'm stressed Got my head down, hands gripping on my neck Did I take my last breath? Did I walk my last step? I'm alive, but inside I am dead Look, I lied, I'm not fine 'cause my mind is a wreck I saw pictures of me in elementary I don't remember teachers ever telling me I'd be an adult who senses people's energy Being an empath attracts those who lack empathy When I look back, my past shows me bad memories Plus, it's so sad, I had to withstand everything All for my last ex, damn, thought you'd stand next to me You stabbed my back, and that hurt me bad mentally It definitely changed me, but I forgive you I understand now that you had your own issues Your fear of abandonment really convinced you That you weren't enough for the love I would give you I tried, but I broke myself tryna fix you And I feel hurt that you couldn't commit to Me or the love I would give you Nobody knows what I been through It's been several years Since I felt okay, I'm losing my way and It's been several years Since I've been on meds, I still feel depressed and It's been several years Since I felt alive, there's no tears to cry and It's been several years Since I had a friend, they came and went