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Reflections of you, reflections of me I can't look it's the most beautiful thing That you've ever seen That you've ever heard of The ripples disperse us anyway So ask me again And go tell your friends About all of the things you said about me Well maybe if we're talking metaphorically The words round your head the ones that you thought Maybe it's just best not to say them at all Reflections of you, reflections of me I can't look it's the most beautiful thing That you've ever seen That you've ever heard of The ripples disperse us anyway It's time to pretend And talk to your friends About all of the things you've done without me Well maybe if we're speaking rhetorically The words round your head the ones that you thought I'm not your friend so don't tell me anymore

Everything I see is a reflection of my ego Everything I hear is an illusion in my head In a forest of realities I'm alone inside my tree house If that is who I am then who am I to judge? Come away There's a room I started building on the day the light came crashing Every corner holds a truth but they can never be connecting Childhood is a cup already empty once you taste it When the future is unwritten there's a lifetime left to waste it Come away All I am is a wave Crashing over matter into space All I am is a wave Waiting on the day for me to break All I am is a wave Crashing over matter into space All I am is a wave Waiting on the day I finally break.

Yeah, yeah In the mirror of my mind Time after time I see reflections of You and me Reflections of The way life used to be Reflections of The love you took from me I'm all alone now No love to shield me Trapped in a world that's A distorted reality (Nothing's real) Happiness you Took from me And left me alone With only memories Through the mirror of my mind Through these tears that I'm crying Reflects the hurt I can't Control 'Cause although you're gone I keep holdin' on To the happy times Ooh when you were mine As I peer out through the window Of the lost time Looking over my yesterday And all this love I gave all in vain (Nothing's real) (All the love) All the love that I've wasted (All those tears) All the tears that I've tasted (Ooh, ooh, ooh) All in vain (All in vain, till nothing remains) Through the hollow of my tears I see a dream that's lost From the hurt, hey, hey That you have caused Everywhere I turn Seems like everything I see Reflects the love that Used to be, yeah In you I put All my faith and trust And right before my eyes My world is turned to dust After all those nights I sat alone and wept Just a hand full of promises and All that's left of lovin' you (Nothing's real) Reflections of The way life used to be Reflections of The love you took from me In you I put All my faith and trust Right before my eyes My world's turned to dust Reflections of (Oh yeah) The way life used to be (Yeah) Reflections of (Love you took) The love you took from me (I'll remember) In you I put All my faith and trust (Remember, remember) Right before my eyes My world is turned to dust Reflections of The way life used to be

You didn't close the door Left a crack open I couldn't ignore the faint possibility Of having hope in this insanity That we still could be But we're stuck floating in between Put me on the shelf, discipline myself To let the sparks die out Shattering anything That has reflections of you You You You Our eyes were closed with hearts open wide Dismissed every rule to abide by Our bodies undressed the layers of shy Revealing the truth that was buried inside Filled up feelings That now are bursting at the seams Put me on the shelf, discipline myself To let the sparks die out Shattering anything That has reflections of you You You You Unsure of what are my dreams, it seems You have stolen my slumber and awakened another Life within me that is better than any other Reaching endless heights in never ending nights That can't be seen, put to bed this dream Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Put me on the shelf, discipline myself To let the sparks die out Shattering anything That has reflections of you You You You

(Look at your face) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you (Look at your face) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you What would it take to make a woman like you View a wolf like me, for what I really might be Listenin' to lyrics only hears what I allow You gotta try and make me testify for here and right now Let's have a confrontation over a cold one I'll give you conversation just to see if you can hold 'em I play so dumb Because I know some of these starstruck, small talk, art fucks is no fun I'm the blood type that goes straight for the guns Like, before you even spoke already knew what your loves like So what you thinking? Because I'm thinking we should jump into your ocean Let's go girl, this ship is sinking (Look at your face) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you (Look at your face) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you Now there's no reason to lie, I've had a lot of lovers In my reality it's impossible to avoid it But there's one reason for life Gotta provide some supper Gonna build a family just to watch someone destroy it Do you really think you wanna get to know me better Don't you see the drama, don't you feel the pressure Don't get me wrong it would be my pleasure To sing a song that could remove your shoes and your sweater Bartender let me get a shot of Beam 'Cause this girl over here is tryna get me out my jeans And she doesn't seem to believe I'm just another thief Came to take a piece and make you stutter when you breath Now girl, you too smart to be a tour mark Set to play correct from the start with your pure heart And when you're all alone, I'll sing into your phone If you don't know the words, you can make up your own The first time she met the devil was at First Avenue Went back stage with him into the dressing room Sexy ego trip, taller than expected About six foot three Seemed to thrive on his misery Critical, observant, big words Sweaty hair, sunken eyes, and thick curves She said "I'll make em smile for the simple fact that he needs it I'll make him smile just so I can kill it and eat it" You look like you were built for me You talk like you want to steal my drink You kiss like you already came And that's a Lifter Puller line for those without any game It's like damn baby, you know you can't save me But you should still tell your people that you're leaving with the band Maybe you can show me your hustle Neither one of us would be so lonely If only you would come over here and hold me I caught you tryna hide your smile behind your glass But all of your secrets become a swingset when you laugh And all of your regrets that you're carrying and burying Don't mean a damn thing if there's nobody to share them with We've been following each other all night now We ought to be all over each other like right now I don't like crowds, let's take flight now 'Cause that face that you make reminds me of my life now (Look at your face) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you (Look at your face) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you (Look at your face) (I'm only trying to find myself inside of you) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) (I'm only trying to find myself inside of you) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you (Look at your face) (I'm only trying to find myself inside of you) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) (I'm only trying to find myself inside of you) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you (Look at your face) (I'm only trying to find myself inside of you) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) (I'm only trying to find myself inside of you) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you (Look at your face) (I'm only trying to find myself inside of you) When all I could see was myself looking back at me (Reflection) (I'm only trying to find myself inside of you) And all I could do was think about sleeping next to you I looked into the mirror Mirror mirror on the Walls are tumbling down, walls, down Walls, down, walls, down

And there were future reflections On the face and the hands On a green colored island On a primitive man It was the future reflected It felt familiar but new A street was missing a building The kids had something to do There was a feeling the spirit was leaving Red like a marker So my tribe, with my knife Cut the heart from a lonely life I saw patterns on floorboards Deep in the dust was a leader Someone was walking on floorboards Turned them from oak to cedar He can assess the situation I wrapped a string around my finger Into the forest with the young ones I don't expect to be a winner But as long as you feel it I'm a believer My heart is phosphor Sea rolls and death tolls Break the surface don't break my bones Off of the trail and off of your hands and Onto a new plan Is the cost to stay lost Forever in an empty skin Pale and thin If it's good, or if it's fortune, I can't tell But pieces come together for some reason just as well Their guns couldn't see us There's a sea outside my door And one day I'll appreciate The rush of blood and the washed out beat of the shore And remember what it felt like To be alone Sitting in the sunlight All alone

What if this great light that shines down upon me Is but the sun light's reflection on the moon? And what if our history Is but the endless struggle of wolves and sheep? And that worries me

The violence in my heart Is taking over me Reflections in my mind Oh, a distant memory The violence in my heart Is taking over me Reflections in my mind Oh, a distant memory

Where have you been? Do you know when you're comin' back? Since you've been gone I've got along, but I've been sad I tried to put it out for you to get Could've, should've, but you never did Wish you wanted it a little bit More, but it's a chore for you to give Where have you been? Do you know if you're comin' back? We were too close to the stars I never knew somebody like you, somebody Fallin' just as hard I'd rather lose somebody than use somebody Maybe it's a blessing in disguise (I see myself in you) I see my reflection in your eyes I know you're sick Hopin' you fix whatever's broken Ignorant bliss And a few sips might be the potion I tried to put it out for you to get Coulda, shoulda, but you never did Wish you wanted it a little bit More, but it's a chore for you to give Where have you been? Do you know if you're comin' back? We were too close to the stars I never knew somebody like you, somebody Fallin' just as hard I'd rather lose somebody than use somebody Maybe it's a blessing in disguise (I see myself in you) I see my reflection in your eyes (Tell me you see it too) So close, so close Yet so far away (so far) I don't know (I don't) how to be solo (no) So don't go, oh, no, just stay You and I were bright, shootin' through the sky daily (yeah) Lightin' up the night, wasn't always right, baby (mm-hm) Yeah, every time that we realign, it's crazy And you save me We were too close to the stars I never knew somebody like you, somebody Fallin' just as hard I'd rather lose somebody than use somebody Maybe it's a blessing in disguise (I see myself in you) I see my reflection in your eyes (I sold my soul for you, I know you see it too) Yeah, I bought the same ones too I know you're tired, I know you tried To say your point of view, yeah Sick of all the poison in me What the hell do you want from me, babe? Uh-huh I see myself in you, I see myself in you, baby I see myself in you, alright I sold my soul for you, maybe you should stick with us now

I see reflections of me when I look at you And I ain't never felt this way And I can't lie, girl you got it And I got pain all in my body You helping me heal from Lil' mama a real one Baby girl you want the rest of me and I'ma give it to you I'ma spoil you like a real nigga Know I adore you Baby girl you got me shook Lil' mama got me hooked And you know these niggas ain't gon' do what I do You know my body girl I gotta stay true Niggas know I got a dime Deep strokes in your spine I been running out of time Gotta show the world you're mine And when I fuck up, girl you hold it down even though I ain't shit I been fucked up, I'm so traumatized since my dog got hit Promethazine in my eyes Girl you be tight when I sip But I tell you I'ma hood nigga first I'm out the mud, I'm from the dirt My niggas still putting in work They trap from the first to the first I ain't tryna end up on no shirts So I keep a glocky tucked around me I just pray that my angels surround me I remember when they tried to clown me Tell me all your ambitions baby I'm here to listen if you need me baby First one to talk tough shit but I need you lately I see reflections of me when I look at you And I ain't never felt this way And I can't lie, girl you got it And I got pain all in my body You helping me heal from Lil' mama a real one Baby girl you want the rest of me and I'ma give it to you I'ma spoil you like a real nigga Know I adore you Baby girl you got me shook Lil' mama got me hooked And you know these niggas ain't gon' do what I do You know my body girl I gotta stay true You know I'm street first Gotta make sure you eat first And I can't let you sleep hurt Knowing damn well that nobody don't love me Why the fuck would I leave her Can't speak on all the shit that a nigga done seen firsthand Feel like I don't need no man I be moving off of instinct so I feel like I don't need no plan She ain't worried 'cause she know a nigga got commas on me And I ain't never worried 'bout no nigga plotting on me Seem life gotta lil' worse I got the dollars on me But I ain't worried 'cause a nigga always got it on me Niggas hate so you know I try to stay solo You done been around ever since it was USPA not Polo Street nigga, she a down bitch so my lil' baby on go mode I see reflections of me in you that's something you don't know I see reflections of me when I look at you And I ain't never felt this way And I can't lie, girl you got it And I got pain all in my body You helping me heal from Lil' mama a real one Baby girl you want the rest of me and I'ma give it to you I'ma spoil you like a real nigga Know I adore you Baby girl you got me shook Lil' mama got me hooked And you know these niggas ain't gon' do what I do You know my body girl I gotta stay true

The changing of sunlight to moonlight Reflections of my life Oh, how they fill my eyes The greetings of people in trouble Reflections of my life Oh, how they fill my eyes All my sorrow Sad tomorrow Take me back to my old home All my crying (all my crying) Feel I'm dying, dying Take me back to my old home I'm changing, arranging I'm changing, I'm changing everything Ah, everything around me The world is a bad place A bad place, a terrible place to live Oh, but I don't wanna die All my sorrow Sad tomorrow Take me back to my old home All my crying (all my crying) Feel I'm dying, dying Take me back to my old home All my sorrow (all my sorrow) Sad towmorrow Take me back (take me back) to my old home All my crying (all my crying) Feel I'm dying, dying

So, 25 years ago would you ever have imagined Sitting in a room in Spain Looking back on your whole career You know, I tend to live in the moment and I, I think probably One of the themes of this interview will be about just that Living in the moment, not really thinking much about the future Or, or necessarily thinking about the past, y'know The great thing about music is it's, it's very immediate And it's, then it's gone it's over So no I didn't really anticipate this I didn't anticipate becoming 60 Erm, I, I couldn't imagine being 60 when I was 25 or Even 30 Erm, I'm glad that I'm my age I er, I'm proud of my age, I'm not hiding it I think there's a certain amount of, erm, sagacity that comes along with it You know, a bit of, a bit of wisdom, not too much Erm, and yet I don't feel physically like I'm that age I, I don't feel infirm, you know, erm I think my, um, impression of people who are 60 when I was younger was that they Y'know, they just couldn't function as human beings As physical human beings And I feel, er, very strong so I'm fortunate in that sense So it's fun, I have, I have, I have both sides of it I have a bit of wisdom and I still have, y'know, the energy of a younger man How did it go down The, the whole process for "The Dream of the Blue Turtles" And bringing that whole concept together? I get bored very easily and, erm I just like to do a different thing every, every time I'm not one of these guys who just want to keep pressing the same button, y'know To get the same result 'cause I don't think you do I think get diminishing returns I've always been a bit of a gadfly, erm Y'know and some people would say that's not a logical, y'know If you're successful, you have a formula here Then you should keep repeating it And my rationale is the complete opposite, y'know Once you've, once you, once you know that works then why do it again? And so I, I, I wanted to make "The Dream of the Blue Turtles" as basically, er An omnibus of different kinds of songs And then I started t-, t-, to look for musicians to recruit And I was in New York and I met Branford Marsalis and Kenny Kirkland Who were jazz players and I was intrigued by that Not that I wanted to, to make a Jazz record I was just intrigued by people who wanted to cross over From one kind of music and who were broad-minded enough t- To see the possibilities of that rather than, er, y'know Just sticking with jazz or just making pop music And actually see if something could be created from b-, from both My mum was dying at the, when I was making this record and erm Yeah, she, she was obviously a, a sort of guiding spirit of the record Although not consciously I didn't set out to make a record, y'know, about my mother but Obviously she was on my mind a lot and suffering a lot And, er, I suppose the record became a kind of, erm Therapy, a way of processing that, those feelings M-, my previous, er, successful song had been "Every Breath You Take" Which is a kind of song about control and surveillance and, y'know It's not a terribly healthy song Although some people think it's very romantic, erm I won't, I won't disabuse them of that Of course you can interpret a song whatever way But there is some dark-, a darkness to "Every Breath You Take" So I wanted to write the antidote to that Which of course is, if you love somebody set them free Well, I don't think I invented that phrase, I think it came from somewhere else But it was the way I was feeling, you know I wanted to be set free and if you really love me let me go "Love Is The Seventh Wave" is a great example of a track Where you brought calypso and reggae together How did, how did that all come about? Well, we were on the island of Barbados, you know And, erm, we were going to every night to, to reggae bars and so, y'know It just, it was in the water we were drinking so we just did a reggae song It's a sweet song What motivated you to write the track "Englishman in New York"? "Englishman in New York" w- was inspired by, erm A guy who became a friend of mine, erm Quentin Crisp. He was homosexual at a time where, it was One, it was illegal in Britain and dangerous And he was a very singular man, a very brave man Who dressed in a very flamboyant manor at a time when it was dangerous And wrote, wrote about his life And, er, he wrote a book called "The Naked Civil Servant" And, er, then when I moved to New York I, I, I sought him out And I'd have, I'd have lunch with him and we'd chat a lot And, er, I wrote that song for him, you know, the The line "be yourself no matter what they say" I think that's I think that's one of his "They Dance Alone" was, was inspired by an article I read in, erm, a magazine About the Pinochet regime in Chile, erm With the help of the CIA, y'know, Pinochet had, had a military coup and, erm Had basically murdered a lot of people who lef- Left wing people, union leaders, intellectuals, folk singers And, erm, the whole class of people became known as "The Disappeared" "Los, Los Desaparecidos" and, erm There was no recourse, there was no legal recourse for these people The survivors of these families, and What they did was, the, the mothers of The Disappeared Or the, the wives or the children would, erm, dress in traditional costume And they'd pin the photographs of their loved ones to the clothes And they'd dance this traditional Chilean dance called the Cueca Outside of government buildings and of course were photographed And, you know, that, that created a great furore, erm And I, I learned of, of their p-, the whole situation through this article And then, then I, I went to Chile and I met these, I met these women And they told me the horrific stories of, of what had happened to the their Their husbands and their sons And the song became a bit of a cause célèbre in Chile I think it was banned, understandably, but, erm Eventually I, I, I went back to Chile with Amnesty International And, er, performed the song with the mothers on stage In the stadium where a lot of their kids had been murdered So that was pretty, erm, it-, it's as intense performance situation As you ever likely to get, erm Because everyone in the stadium knew what was being re-enacted here And dancing with these mums, er, in this particular place was, er Probably unforgettable, erm, one, one of the moments that you think w- What a privilege to be a performer and you are allowed to do this kind of thing Erm, and I have kept the relationship with these people Every time I go to Chile they, they come and see me and er You know, I just lost my own mother so it was kind of, er, re- A lot, lot of replacement mothers sort of turned up So, er, there was a connection there "The Soul Cages", erm I started to think about an album just aft- after "Nothing Like the Sun", erm And my mum died and then my, me old man died and, er, within a year of each other So I was kind of, er, in a bit of a state really, erm I knew I had to write something because that's always been my therapy The way of processing emotion And I started to think about where I came from Well, I'm from Tyneside which is a very industrial part of, er, England And I was brought up in a very bizarre landscape, industrial landscape In a street next to a shipyard and one of my earliest memories if of, erm A massive, er, boat being built above our house, um So big that it would just blot out the sun And then they'd, they'd launch a ship then they'd, they'd build another one These ships of course would never come back Once they'd been launched they, they would, they would leave And, er, it became very symbolic, I suppose of my own life Started writing about my town and by association writing about my, my dad And the death of my father and the death of my town really 'Cause they closed the shipyard and they closed the coal mine and, erm A thriving community bas- basically left to its own devices, um So the themes on that record are kind of dark Tell me about "All This Time" What's interesting is that it seems that Bach played a big influence in that song Well, you know, I'd sort of fallen in love with Bach cello suites First the first one particularly and, erm, was just messing around on guitar with those The, the way it changes and then it kind of evolved into a song which you, you wouldn't Even a musicologist wouldn't see the connection But that's, that was the starting point The way the chords move came from Bach And then they evolved so you wouldn't recognise what it was but, you know That's how, that's how you start You, you take something that exists already and then you transform it into something else And then you lose, you lose whatever the, the original influence was And it becomes something different but, er I still find Bach a very useful teacher, you know I, I try and play little bit everyday, erm, from the music And there's an interesting thing happens when you, when you play from music You're almost in the same, in the room with the guy who wrote 400 years ago And you see him making decisions on the paper And you wonder how on earth he figured that one out, you know It's, it's like, it's like being with a teacher So he's still very much a, a character in my back room Your next record was "Ten Summoner's Tales" What, what's the story behind that record for you? I decided to get out of city, um, you know I'd been liv- liv- living in London for a long long time and, er Just wanted to know what it would be like to live in the country, you know It's an atmosphere on that record that's very much about being at home and that house Er, we all lived in the house, all the musicians and the technicians, er The studio was my dining room, next to a kitchen The windows were open most of the time and, er I wrote the songs walking round the garden I was sitting by the river, it was pretty idyllic So on the track of "Fields of Gold" you clearly are speaking of barley fields and, you know This is part of your environment, er, at the time But what, what does this mean to you and, and what attracted you to write a song about that? Well, you, you know there was surrounded by barley fields, it's as simple as that And again I wanted to pay tribute to that idea of continuity in relationships and, erm How important they are and the song is a very, sort of, it's like an old folk song, you know And it uses tropes from old, old songs that, you know, have been around for years That no one can lay claim to, it's part of our heritage But, er, it, that song could have been written in the 16th century, you know It wouldn't be much different to, but it, it has, has a meaning now which I, I like Tell me about the track "Seven Days" "Seven Days" is I, I think a funny song It's perversely written in 5/4 time whereas maybe 7/8 time would have been a little more appropriate But, you know, I like writing in, in compound time, erm It's like a puzzle to me, how do you fit standard rhyme into this very sort of strange metre? Erm, some people get it, some people don't but I, I, It's, for me it's like a three-dimensional puzzle I love the way drums keep looping round in this Every time they come back they're in a different place in the bar That amuses me "Mercury Falling" was, was again made at Lake House There are some songs on it that I'm really proud of "Hung My Head", I'm very proud of that song, was Was eventually covered by Johnny Cash which made me very happy You know, if you're writing a country song and Johnny Cash covers it You're doing something right "Hounds of Winter", I like that song too, I like the way the chords move And it's really a song about a, being older man reflecting on loneliness It wasn't me at the time but, you know, you're allowed to role-play And you're allowed to put yourself in the shoes of other people as a songwriter What's the meaning behind the track "Let Your Soul Be Your Pilot"? A friend of mine who was dying of AIDS and, erm I didn't, didn't really have much hope for him And I just thought I'd write a, you know, a supportive song about, er What that situation would be like Happily he, he didn't die, he was in one of those miracles and, erm But, you know, the, the period before that when people got AIDS They, they, they were basically condemned to death and Happily now, people can, can have normal lives but er, this, the song was about death And, and coping with it, erm I think it's an important subject, increasingly "Brand New Day" was written just before the millennium And there was a lot of, er, millennial talk about the end of the world, you know We had the, the Y2K scare, you know, the, the world was going to end And I, I think sort of pessimism like that is kind of self-fulfilling in a way So I, I wanted to write an antidote to that saying start again There's a song called, erm, "Tomorrow We'll See" The character that emerged from this music was a tr-, a, a, a transsexual prostitute And, er, I don't know quite where he, he comes from in my psyche But, erm, I we-, I went through with it, wrote the song in this persona of this, this, this person And the refrain is, you know, "don't judge me" You could be me in another, another life, a different set of circumstances Which I think is a, a good lesson You know, we shouldn't judge people The world is riddled with judgement, you know And it's, it's not helping We need to, er, be tolerant and we need to understand each other And, er, accept each other's differences "Desert Rose" was a song about spiritual longing I suppose With, th- through the filter of romantic longing I gave it to Cheb Mami who doesn't speak English and I said "Can you write some lyrics in Arabic that will, that will, be, be Able to weave in and out of this, of my song?" And he said "sure", you know So he, he came back about a week later and he said "Oh I've got this" And he started just singing and I said "What are you singing about?" And he says "Oh, I'm singing about longing" So, I mean, it's not a big stretch really but, you know It was interesting that we were both basically singing the same thing Even from different cultures I felt for a time, erm, in the, in the aftermath of that event Sept- September the 11th That the United States had an opportunity, er The world was very much with it, er, and in sympathy with it Apart from a few hare-brained fanatics And that, that was a very useful, er, time for America to set things, a few things right And instead we, we ended up invading Iraq for, er Reasons that have since been shown to be spurious It made me angry and I, I, I think a lot of the songs on secret love were An angry reaction to that wasted opportunity You know, for years I'd, I'd been, erm, propositioned by people saying that I oughta sing the music of John Dowland And I can never figure out why this proposition kept coming to me And it sounds, sounds a bit fruity, you know This sort of 16th century music, very highfalutin, aw I never quite saw it And then, erm, I, I met, erm, a lute player called Edin Karamazov He's a fantastic lute player but he, he lives in this world This strange 16th century world And he said "You should learn the songs of Dowland" Okay, I, I, let's, let's, let, I'm, I'm tired of hearing this Let's, let's see what this is about, so he taught me some of the songs It's one of those, erm, sort of labours of love that you just do for curiosity and So I'm, I'm kind of, erm, gratified by that and I hope, hope John Dowland is And he's not spinning in his grave somewhere, wherever he's buried In 2009 you released "If on a Winter's Night" Er, what, what made that record unique and what was that process like for you? This, this concept was brought to me by Bob Sagin who was a very successful record producer Because I like the winter, I really, I, I love the winter and, erm We started to, to look at repertoire and first some of the repertoire was a little bit obvious You know, like Christmas carols that everybody knew and I said I'm not really interested in that kind of record I, I want to do s- songs that people don't know Esoteric songs, strange songs I sang a couple of the songs in my dialect 'cause I hadn't actually done that on record before But, erm, and it's a, it's a dialect I rarely use unless I get angry And so to use it for singing was interesting but I, I kind of lost my accent in my twenties When I moved to London no-one understood a word I said I said, ok, ok I will learn a new language but, er If I go home I'll speak Geordie, er Or if I get really angry You've been doing this for so long it seems that you work so hard Where, where does you work ethic come from? I f- don't feel as if I'm, er, existing unless I'm working I, I, I, I, it, it, it's my raison d'etre I, I'm not, I'm not saying thats a particularly healthy attitude but it's the way I am I, er, I enjoy working but when I'm not working I, I, I don't know what my function is I still think I'm a work in progress, you know I still think I've, I've got a ways to go before and I, I can stop

I found my calling I feel it I feel up lyrics with feelings I found my calling I hear it I let it ring for a minute Afraid to answer Too timid Like who am I to be different I let it ring for a minute Them sixty seconds infinite When you feel finished, diminished My light was bright now it's dimming Still I would fight not to end it It's worth it all The hardest part of me is learning my perfect flaws The artist part of me is learning to love it all I been battling some demons Tryna keep myself in tact And only put out good so I get back what I attract I see the enemy in me, he point out what I lack I know the life I want but what if it don't want me back That's my doubt and fears Pity party Penny parties with a thousand tears Really are we feeling sorry Yo we'll make it outta here Now it's clear see the path I'm headed on if I steer May my ethics be my pedals and my prayers be my wheels On the real I turn my words into art and let it spill I gotta make it where I'm from It's like nobody does Cause dreams die faster than the body does And this is me talking to me cause we don't speak enough Love self if nothing else it's just a deeper love Speaking of I care less about what people love And if you listening you feel me turn your speakers up Swear I don't care if this too long for a radio hit Or you skip because it's boring and don't play it again This really came from soul I really made it within This really came from my heart this the makeup of Penn I used to think the outfits prolly help me fit in But I was cappin and I'll never wear that fitted again I'm back to rappin I'm so glad I found this feeling again And now I'm tapped in Welcome yall to the spirit of Penn so here it is like that In a house full of mirrors I'm just tryna find myself Myself On the road to be winners I'm not tryna lose Myself Close my eyes all in hopes that I can see Look inside, I have everything I need All of the stress all of the burdens All of the time that I spent hurtin It was all worth it though It always hurts to grow soul Graduated college at that moment felt on top I pass my last praxis right before I got to walk My grandma got to see me, she said jbug you'll go far I found myself that day, but by the next day I was lost All alone with these loans thinkin how to pay em off Cause Sallie Mae won't cut no breaks on what I owe she want it all I feel the walls start closing I never got the sleep I needed back in undergrad, but now my eyes wide open And I question who I am Did I pick the wrong major was it worth in the end When we was laid up and I said I loved her was it genuine Or was it only I was lonely and she phoned me Cause she lonely and we happened to be friends Humble experience life after college Impact of kickback is slight alcoholic Inside I'm tripping I'm dealing with all this I tell myself mane go get it regardless of how I feel On the real I turn my words into art I let it spill I gotta make it where I'm from It's like nobody does Cause dreams die faster than the body does And this is me talking to me cause we don't speak enough Love self if nothing else it's just a deeper love Speaking of I care less about what people love And if you listening you feel me turn your speakers up Swear I don't care if this too long for a radio hit Or you skip because it's boring and don't play it again This really came from soul I really made it within This really came from my heart this the makeup of Penn I used to think the outfits prolly help me fit in But I was cappin and I'll never wear that fitted again I'm back to rappin I'm so glad I found this feeling again And now I'm tapped in Welcome yall to the spirit of Penn so here it is like that In a house full of mirrors I'm just tryna find myself Myself On the road to be winners I'm not tryna lose Myself Close my eyes all in hopes that I can see Look inside, I have everything I need All of the stress all of the burdens All of the time that I spent hurtin It was all worth it though It always hurts to grow soul You ever wonder who you would be If you wasn't doing what you doing See that's where I'm at right now Who is Malcolm with no Penn Davis No album no apple playlist No Al Covani just Alex He never picked up a camera I never picked up a pen and I never got decent at it Mopp never showed me the ropes and YK never let me practice If I never lost my father, if his death was never tragic If I never went to foster care because he flipped a package If I never forgave my mother for being young and passive If I never just sat and watched as my father hit and slapped her If I never just sat confused cause he sat and cried after And if I never just sat and thought bout my life playing backwards Who would I really be That's how I know it's meant to be See God sending me All of these test they just make up my identity And anytime I feel the pressure and it get to me I tell myself who I deep down really be real I turn my words into art and let em spill I gotta make it where I'm from It's like nobody does Cause dreams die faster than the body does And this is me talking to me cause I don't speak enough Love self if nothing else it's just a deeper love Speaking of I care less about what people love And if you listening you feel me turn your speakers up Swear I don't care if this too long for a radio hit Or you skip because it's boring and don't play it again This really came from soul I really made it within This really came from my heart this the makeup of Penn I used to think the outfits prolly help me fit in But I was cappin and I'll never wear that fitted again I'm back to rappin I'm so glad I found this feeling again And now I'm tapped in Welcome yall to the spirit of Penn so here it is like that In a house full of mirrors I'm just tryna find myself Myself On the road to be winners I'm not tryna lose Myself Close my eyes all in hopes that I can see Look inside, I have everything I need All of the stress all of the burdens All of the time that I spent hurtin It was all worth it though It always hurts to grow soul

I've been waiting for a sorry that's not coming I've been hoping for the one I thought you were I've been trying to distract my heart with wanting Somebody, anybody If I knew the end, before we begin Where I do the same If I knew the end, before we begin Where I do the same Where I- I wake up, from a bad dream Until up, of the same old thing Try to get up, to your memory Don't wait up, for me I've been waiting for a story without ending I've been searching for a hand to hold on to I'd be lying to myself If I say I don't want somebody, anybody You're a sickness, said I never shoulda got it You're my weakness, said I never grew up on it In the distance, I'll be on the another planet In the distance, you're shrinking You're a sickness, said I never shoulda got it You're my weakness, said I never grew up on it In the distance, I'll be on the another planet In the distance, you're shrinking I wake up, from a bad dream Until up, of the same old thing Try to get up, to your memory Don't wait up, for me If I knew the end, before we begin Where I do the same If I knew the end, before we begin Where I do the same Where I-

The sea will pull you in My soul is all I have As i take my last breath I feel it setting in...