What a Debt He Paid for Me - John Bowman

So wasted he's throwing up on the grass I spent all I earn this week again And I'm trying to make it last Missed the last train It's four o'clock again The cab driver quoted 80 bucks So he began to walk Oh, this is not what you paid for Spilling drinks on the table Getting fucked up and kicked out Lift my blinds Another wasted day Sleeping off the hunger pains And saying you're okay Oh, this is not what you paid for Spilling drinks on the table Getting fucked up and kicked out Even in a blacked out bar Well, I can't really forgive myself If I don't know what I'm sorry about My friends keep over compensating for Not knowing if there's a fucking point anymore You caught me at a bad time But to be honest, there hasn't been a good one for a while Could you do me a favour? Don't tell anyone what you saw here The dull throbbing of a reckless summer Fucking get me out of here The quick flicker of a smile That I've never seen before in her eyes Oh, this is not what you paid for Spilling drinks on the table Getting fucked up and kicked out Even in a blacked out bar Well, I can't really forgive myself If I don't know what I'm sorry about My friends keep over compensating for Not knowing if there's a fucking point anymore

My dreams are real My dreams are real My dreams feel real But not the ones I've been praying for The ones at night That wake me up and open my eyes Eyes closed but I don't know why it feels more real than life Feels like I'm losing my mind But I have dreams inside of me that I want to be reality, I I pray that they come true But I don't know All these prayers don't let them be empty words Searching for Truth but I just feel like I'm alone My dreams are real My dreams are real My dreams are real I feel it coming My dreams are real My dreams are real My dreams are real I feel it coming My dreams are real But not the ones I was ready for The ones that float around my head As I lie in bed Keeping me from sleep And I can't take it anymore Eyes open wide in the middle of the night, I Try to deny that I'm living in a lie Talk nice with the guys, I don't wanna kill the vibe Why don't I say goodbye to the voices in my mind My dream is for my dreams to be Your dreams in me Align my desire, mortify what's inside, sanctify, 'til my life magnifies my King But I don't know All these prayers don't let them be empty words Searching for Truth but I just feel like I'm alone I don't know All these prayers don't let them be empty words Searching for Truth but I just feel like I'm alone My dreams feel real But not the ones I've been praying for The ones at night Wake me up and open my eyes 'Cause I want my dreams all my dreams To be Your dreams in me So show me that with You There's endless possibilities Take everything, even my anxieties With You I am strong And I'm never alone Oh Oh Oh I'm never alone I feel it coming Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh

One by one her accusers were gone Soon she was standing with jesus alone He said ."go thy way and sin no more Lest something worse come in through Your door " This woman one time, she fell by the way They brought her to jesus, to stone her That day He wrote on the ground when her sins Were made known Let the one without sin Cast the first stone You may be the one that's fallen today But there's mercy for you if you take time To pray Call on jesus now, believe in your heart And turn from your sin my friend and Make a new start Jesus wrote on the ground when her sins Were made known Let the one without sin cast the first stone

Look at me I will never pass for a perfect bride Or a perfect daughter Can it be I'm not meant to play this part? Now I see that if I were truly to be myself I would break my family's heart Who is that girl I see Staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection someone I don't know? Somehow I cannot hide Who I am, though I've tried When will my reflection show Who I am inside? How I pray that a time will come I can free myself and meet their expectations On that day, I'll discover someway to be myself And to make my family proud They want a docile lamb No one knows who I am Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide? Must I pretend that I'm Someone else for all time? When will my reflection show Who I am inside? When will my reflection show Who I am inside?