Trauma - Ahbentlee

La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la 내 맘속의 오랜 villain 셀 수 없이 맘을 찔린 No, ooh, 기억이 내게 미칠 No, ooh, 그 잔혹함의 지침, eh-oh 잊을 만하면 또 다시, oh yeah 익숙한 화면 속 같이, oh yeah 되살아나는 상처 피하다 매번 다쳐 (맘을 다쳐, yeah) 알아 나만 이렇겠어? 뭐 나만 이렇겠어? 기억 너머, 작은 문 (애써 잠궈둔 문) 열어버려 끝없이 (이젠, 열어둬) 들이마신 숨 (가득 마셔 더) 고를 때까지 기억 속에 버려둘, 잊어가도 되는 일 털어버려 툭 별거 아닌 일 잊을 때까지 (때까지), 끝까지 (끝까지) 기억 속에 버려둘, 이제 별거 아닌 일 독한 기억들만 마셔 (yeah) 점점 깊이 맘에 박혀 (yeah) 세게 다그치고, 몰아붙여 (붙) 습관적인 자책마저, eh-eh 어쩔 수 없던 것까지, oh yeah 깊이 우거진 곁가지, oh yeah 잘라내 남김없이 하나도 남김없이 (미련 없이, yeah) 이게 나를 위한 최선 더 날카로운 시선 기억 너머, 작은 문 (애써 잠궈둔 문) 열어버려 끝없이 (이젠, 열어둬) 들이마신 숨 (가득 마셔 더) 고를 때까지 기억 속에 버려둘, 잊어가도 되는 일 털어버려 툭 별거 아닌 일 잊을 때까지 (때까지), 끝까지 (끝까지) 기억 속에 버려둘, 이제 별거 아닌 일 La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la 늘 끝없던 어둠, 속에 켜는 불 더 크게 열어둘 나를 가둔 문 Jump on the scene, hit you with the lean 가벼워진 마음으로 느낀 떨림 끝도 없이 날 깨우던 악몽은 내가 셋 세면 싹 사라져 뜨거워진 내 안을 태워 모두 한결 가벼워지는 나의 하루, ayy 순간을 뛰어넘어, ayy 나를 가둔 벽을 넘어, ayy 똑똑히 봐, 지금 내 눈앞에 무너지는 어제의 trauma, ayy 끝없이 베이고 다친, oh yeah 기억을 지우기까진, oh yeah 시간이 필요했어 더 많이 참아냈어 (이겨냈어, yeah) 태양을 내게 끌어당겨 Oh, 시작되는 반전 기억 너머, 작은 문 (애써 잠궈둔 문) 열어버려 끝없이 (이젠, 열어둬) 크게 쉬는 숨 (새로 채워 널) 내 맘 가득히 기억 속에 버려둘 (babe), 잊어가도 되는 일 멀리 다시 분 바람 끝까지 이제 더 멀리 (더 멀리), 더 멀리 (더 멀리) 보란듯이 이겨내 달라지는 내 눈빛 (달라지는 내 눈빛) La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la La-la-la-la-la-la

Say you're there when I feel helpless If that's true, why don't you help me? It's my fault, I know I'm selfish Stand alone, my soul is jealous It wants love, but I reject it Trade my joy for my protection Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back Say you're here, but I don't feel it Give me peace, but then you steal it Watch them laugh at all my secrets Scream and yell, but I feel speechless Ask for help, you call it weakness Lied and promised me my freedom Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet? I hold you so proudly Traumas, they surround me I wish you'd just love me back Grab my hand, I'm drowning I feel my heart pounding Why haven't you found me yet?

Boom! Boom! This is already a psycho system like that Who picked it like that? Won't you say it to my face, you ain't got the wit to deploy I'm completely different I walk 'round your table, accept you're the reason, the rest of the dead Ok to tell that I'm dangerous I broke out, I'm something else When I outran the kid I'm used to those rapid doors I'll destroy TV sets Though they want the chill it take To hang with the broadcast This place is a Trauma, trauma This is depicted like drama, drama Jiu-Jitsu impact this shock I dig the danger, I'm about it, it's part of life Witness this danger, excitement is part of life I'm into this danger, it's part of me all my life Act upon the reason The wreck in this Trauma, trauma This is depicted like drama, drama Jiu-Jitsu impact this Trauma, trauma This is the sentence, my drama You representing my strategy Rapid display for me, like there's no more to see I think so great to be, I get so tense so quick I should surrender me, acting so mean Wild lil' V, oh no That is the part I like, that is the danger (the danger, danger, danger) And my (Fu-fu-fu-future shock, future shock) (Fu-fu-future shock, future shock) (Fu-fu-future shock) Trauma, trauma Hey, offensive like that A bridging like that I'll disable his shit and I'm erasing him like that (I'm gonna ABC like that) This is the awakening (This is the part I like, work with the danger life) (That is the world I like, a future history timeline) This is the awakening (The world, the world) This is the awakening (This is the part I like, don't waste the danger life) (That is the part I like, a future history timeline) This is the awakening

I'm in trauma, it's got me singing Stuck in trauma, 노래나 부를래 Blah-blah-blah-blah, 안 잊혀져, 왜? That's my trauma, yeah, my trauma, yeah Trauma got me bad, bad 중2 때 난 자퇴 Basically had no friends (yeah, yeah) Boxed in, boxed in, 나 혼자의 세계 (yeah, yeah) Stuck in my fantasy like (whoa) Dreaming it to be real life (whoa) 생각없이 시간을 기다려왔지만 알았어, now I realize 이러다가 나 홀로 남을 거야 I don't know what to do, 이것 말고는 막힌 귓속 박힌 이어폰 volume을 키워 I don't wanna be alone No, 잊혀지기 싫어 So, I'ma sing this song anybody, 듣고 있어 겨우 뱉어내는 숨 들이키는 법은 잊은 듯 나 자신에게 너그러워 지기까지가 난 제일 어려워 빚이라고 생각이 들어 나에게 주어지는 빛이 넓어지는 무대완 달리 마음속 내가 있는 곳은 한 평 남짓, yeah I'm in trauma, it's got me singing Stuck in trauma, 노래나 부를래 Blah-blah-blah-blah, 안 잊혀져, 왜? That's my trauma, yeah, my trauma, yeah Now it's got me singing, singing, singing Stuck in trauma, 노래나 부를래 That's my trauma, yeah, my trauma, yeah 잊혀지는 것에 대한 익숙함 나의 미숙함 나의 의구심 속에서 피어난 머릿속 trauma 내가 살아있는 이유가 도대체 뭘까 미꾸라지처럼 일부가 날 괴롭혀 애석해도, uh 난 그냥 노래할게 아님 곧 갇혀 버려 내 trauma에 첨신이 피폐해짐에 스스로 땅굴을 파 더 깊어지네 Yeah, 더 깊고 더 깊게 스스로도 찾지를 뭇하게 이 trauma의 끝이 어딘지 나조차 몰라 잡아줄 손이 필요해 겨우 뱉어내는 숨 들이키는 법은 잊은 듯 나 자신에게 너그러워 지기까지가 난 제일 어려워 빚이라고 생각이 들어 나에게 주어지는 빛이 넓어지는 무대완 달리 마음속 내가 있는 곳은 한 평 남짓, yeah I'm in trauma, it's got me singing Stuck in trauma, 노래나 부를래 Blah-blah-blah-blah, 안 잊혀져, 왜? That's my trauma, yeah, my trauma, yeah Now it's got me singing, singing, singing Stuck in trauma, 노래나 부를래 That's my trauma, yeah, my trauma, yeah I slowly sink, yeah 노랫소리도 줄어들겠지 Still I want to sing, yeah 누구든 좋으니 여기서 (여기서) 꺼내줘 (꺼내줘) 아니면 너라도 들어와, 들어와줘 Now it's got me singing, singing, singing Stuck in trauma, 노래나 부를래 That's my trauma, yeah, my trauma, yeah

Oh, you're cool as ever (you're cool as ever) Your heart, it glitters in gold (your heart, it glitters in gold) You make me quiver (you make me quiver), shiver Got me like, ooh You're cool as ever (you're cool as ever) (shit) Your heart, it glitters in gold (your heart, it glitters in gold) You make me quiver (you make me quiver), shiver (uh) Got me like, ooh Did so much shit, when I take losses, feel like karma (uh) 'Member I was broke, and now I'm swimmin' in these commas (uh) Sippin' on this cup, and I'm just thinkin' 'bout my momma (uh) I'm tryna keep a focus, I'm attractin' all this drama (uh) Yeah (yeah), huh (huh), and I don't even know who fault it is (I don't) But I climbed too far to go and fall to this (I won't) Bitch, I knew for years (years), actin' like she care Goin' live, clout-chasin', look at all this shit (uh) Gotta stay solid under pressure (pressure) Niggas talkin' caps, so I don't let them give me lectures (nah) I don't think you corny, nigga, I just think I'm better And the feds probably read your shit, so I don't send 'em letters (uh) Huh (huh), yeah (yeah), and all that hatin' get me sick (get me sick) If I was broke and you was me, you'd be a lick (huh, yeah) Half a Percocet and liquor get me lit (yeah) I'll probably fall asleep, so I don't hit the spliff (uh) I say yes, say that, no shame (yeah) I gotta work into the goal as far as I came (yeah) I been doin' me, bro, don't be strange (huh, huh) No breaks, I want everything (huh) Niggas get a buzz, I don't know why they stop (damn) I don't know why they stop (damn) Huh (huh), I don't know why they stop (huh) I work too hard to let 'em take me out my spot (yeah) Smoke for the trauma, sip for the pain (pain) I rap for the commas (huh), I click for the gang (bxaow) Made it, so I walk around with foreign everything (skrrt) Real nigga, I ain't ever had no water on my name (yeah) Water on my wrist though, water on my chain (mm) Water got your bitch wet, make her go insane (uh) Pull up in that new coupe, might take off the brain (skrrt) I done probably drove every fuckin' foreign you can name (skrrt, skrrt) Locked up, free my niggas sittin' in them chains (yeah) Full score, tryna get some new points for the gang (huh, huh) If this ain't what you want, then slow your role and play your lane (nah) 'Cause the moment bodies drop, this shit'll never be the same (grrr) Lotta niggas real, couple niggas fake (yeah) Got the bag then my thoughts flipped the other way (uh) Dirty nigga, why you steady lookin' at my plate? (Huh, huh) It be greedy niggas, those type of niggas that I hate (uh) Traumatized, thinkin', head bussin', nothin' fake (yeah) Tryna talk to God, but I don't know if he relate (yeah) Like, if they would've took me, am I valid through the gate? It's the type of shit that I don't know It's the type of shit that I be feelin' when I'm low (damn) In the clouds, I'm smokin' on this dummy out the O (damn) Momma told me, "Gotta stop the dissin', gotta grow" (okay) Then I think 'bout how them niggas wanted me to go Smoke for the trauma, sip for the pain (pain) Rap for the commas, click for the gang (baow) Made it, so I walk around with foreign everything (uh) Real nigga, I ain't ever had no water on my name (nah) Water on my wrist though, water on my chain Water got your bitch wet, make her go insane (huh, huh) Pull up in the new coupe, might take off the brain (skrrt) I done probably drove every fuckin' foreign you can name (skrrt, skrrt) I had the pain I had the pain Mm, hm, hmm Mm, hmm, hmm Hmm, hmm, hmm

Julie was alive on a Monday Feeling better than an hour before He was tryna get a little idea what The rest of us want Wasn't ever meant to be in the spotlight It was just the way it happened to fall That naturally long physique that The rest of us want In general he had it all 'Til he had a terrible experience While not afraid of living or dying The dust had only settled some Old Julie had a lotta resistance To anything fun In general he had it all 'Til the previous year, 'til the tragedy Blew holes into The fabric of everything And he can't forget For any stretch of time, or Ease into the daily movements The rest of us do The rest of us want In general he had it all 'Til he had a terrible experience