The Abyss - Demon KT

Survey says status sticks I swim three laps through each synapsis with my feet attached to bricks So when our shitty third-world constructed social fabric rips I'll be treading water with every other iconoclast of fish That's a glitch in this system of O's and ones Bitches and clothes and drugs, in the midst of a frozen sun I still start fires on this earth, Sparking lighters with this curse I was given this addiction downward spiraling since birth And it gets worse for fish kind, and I'd give mine to fix yours But I'm just as sure I'll be the one that dies in this abyss first (belly up motherfucker) Best to pray I grow legs and hit dirt Cause it's safe to say this fish baits a good occasion to get scurred It goes hook line and sinker, I use my instincts to survive When blinded by lies cause they look like the keys to true bliss Well here's a few tips for anyone listening to me: There's plenty of fish in the sea, but only some finish the dream (know what I mean?) I'm one step closer on this path that you laid I'm one breath closer to the last one I'll take And I rest knowing that in your hands lies my fate But I'm a little unsure if I'm worth every chance that you gave I'm one step closer on this path that you laid I'm one breath closer to the last one I'll take And I rest just hoping that in your hands lies my fate But I'm unsure if I deserve to even ask to be saved I'm a nomad, with no direction or designated section Walking two parallel pathways trying to make a connection Expressing myself on etch-a-sketches, cause I'm standing on shaky ground And as the foundation starts to crumble, I watch high hopes start tumbling down That rumbling sound you hear is from the belly of the beast Until he feasts on young minds with ideals of peace And meal time will never cease Yeah life's a glutton for its own self-inflicted misery Press the right button and see a million clones rendition of bigotry Is it because I hit the dot on the bottom of my question mark Using my left hand with the utmost of dexterity? And the day I stopped intoxicating myself with conventional thought Is when I had what you could call a moment of existentialist clarity And it's a rarity, in a world where we can see in three dimensions But so many fucking people are just one-sided While some blinded by their faith in a system which has more cracks than a wiseguy The rest just shook, viewing the coming attractions with wide eyes (surprise!) I'm one step closer on this path that you laid I'm one breath closer to the last one I'll take And I rest knowing that in your hands lies my fate But I'm a little unsure if I'm worth every chance that you gave I'm one step closer on this path that you laid I'm one breath closer to the last one I'll take And I rest just hoping that in your hands lies my fate But I'm unsure if I deserve to even ask to be saved While some view life in a luxury box suite, I'm stuck with nose bleed seats Trying to see my future through binoculars Not sure if it's success I see, or just a recipe for self-destruction With something sucking me towards the latter And as my dreams begin to shatter I mask my face focus on my task and question if it matters But this inner sadness is harder to contain than piss in bladders Swimming against the current: mainstream But damn this fish done missed his ladder So they slaughter me to sustain an energy efficient status Disadvantaged with an image that's been hollowed out by the gram To the point where a gaping hole trapped in skin is all that I am You're witnessing the fall of a man never risen Hence, defying the laws of physics simply by my existence Distant from the norm, cause giving in is a breeze But resistance is a storm That leaves your presence ripped and torn Like a victim to kids on Christmas morn' They say time is of the essence, each sixty seconds minutes form So I waste what's in my grasp, then miss it when it's gone (c'mon) I'm one step closer on this path that you laid I'm one breath closer to the last one I'll take And I rest knowing that in your hands lies my fate But I'm a little unsure if I'm worth every chance that you gave I'm one step closer on this path that you laid I'm one breath closer to the last one I'll take And I rest just hoping that in your hands lies my fate But I'm unsure if I deserve to even ask to be saved

I believe that happiness is self-fulfillment I believe that if a person neglects fulfilling any capacity, and Trait that he has, there's that inherent feeling of unhappiness If a person is, uh, gifted artistically, and doesn't express it If he is gifted musically and doesn't express it He's neglecting part of himself, and is not fulfilling himself And if we realize, if we took the effort to realize what we really are The strength of the capacity that we have, and develop them to the fullest Then we'll all be happy I love you, but I also don't What if I'm making a mistake? What if I'm making a mistake? I love you, but I also don't Won't you please love me tomorrow? Won't you please love me tomorrow? I love you, but I also don't And I need a little of you in my life I need a little of you in my life (Then we will be happy) It's haunting me in the night I barely put up a fight anymore, anymore The only way to escape A damaged head and heartache, is to grow numb, is to grow numb Think restlessly as you may Things you can't ever retrace The piece has fallen in play She loves me, she loves me not She loves me, she just forgot She always remembers at the best times I love you, but I also don't What if I'm making a mistake? What if I'm making a mistake? I love you, but I also don't Won't you please love me tomorrow? Won't you please love me tomorrow? I love you, but I also don't And I need a little of you in my life I need a little of you in my life We had an ethicist; Rabbi Dessler, who said: "People make a serious mistake in thinking that you give to those whom you love The real answer is you love those to whom you give" Alright? And his point is If I give something to you, I've invested myself in you Right? Now that part of me has become in you There's part of me in you that I love Part of me in you that I love

Im so lost in the abyss Im feeling so empty Help me get a grip before i fall Help me get to the otherside Even if they praying on my downfall Know that im gonna stand tall While im up all night Thinking about You All the thing that we went through I dont know what to do If only I could talk to you Just to hear your voice for one last Time I'm Waiting For The End To Come But The End Just Seems To Never Come Cause This Feels Like Forever Now its to late and Time aint moving any slower The planets keep spinning

I can feel the energy The changes in my chemistry The atmosphere, the way I breathe My automatic action is To close my eyes and wander in And wait until the madness ends Lost communication with the world outside I fall into my own Into the abyss Lost inside my head I open up the door Step right off the ledge Into the abyss Nothing that I know I can't hear what you say Am I already dead? Into the abyss Looking through distorted eyes A mirror that I can't recognize No way out, no exit signs I try to make myself believe I'm only in a lucid dream It's like another world exists I wanna go back Into the abyss Lost inside my head I open up the door Step right off the ledge Into the abyss Nothing that I know I can't hear what you say Am I already dead? Into the abyss Lost communication with the world outside So much devastation in my world I hide I fall into my own Into the abyss Lost inside my head Cracks across the floor Step right off the ledge Into the abyss Nothing that I know I can't hear what you say Am I already dead? Into the abyss