Struggle Of Sadness

I take a moment just to breathe when I'm feeling that stress With my sins on my sleeve, with what heart I have left 'Til I take my last breath, I will battle with the flesh I picked the side for which I ride There ain't no straddle in the fizz (lord, please) I feel the time passing by I can feel the crash coming I been on a manic high Reminisce to cooking packs Changed my life, no looking back The only man I fear is the reflection I'm looking at Only time I'm ever happy is when I'm keeping a buzz I feel a wall around myself and the people I love Lord, protect me from the storm, I feel the thunder again I done prayed before with a pistol under my chin (Lord please) 'Cause I know that I've been living wrong All along, I just didn't wanna be alone Pray for me, 'cause I know that I've been living wrong All along, I just didn't wanna be alone I'm so afraid of me My demons keep chasing me There ain't no saving me I can't get away from me Pray for me 'Cause I know that I've been living wrong I can't get away from me Pray for me I just didn't wanna be alone I can't get away from me I can't get away from me I can't get away from me Still running from the devil, stiletto's on the gas pedal Pain so high that she crying in a falsetto Echos of my last words' louder than her screams Living in a nightmare, I promised her a dream But I promise this ain't her, this is me My life is slipping through my hand, her love's at my feat I beat myself up 'til my eyes swelled shut So I can't see the love and the choice that's in front of me, fuck I feel stuck in a rut, deep pain in my gut I'm an angel to my demons that duck that cup Built a wall around my heart not to hide It's to keep my love safe from what I see inside Pray for me, 'cause I know that I've been living wrong All along, I just didn't wanna be alone Pray for me, 'cause I know that I've been living wrong All along, I just didn't wanna be alone I'm so afraid of me My demons keep chasing me There ain't no saving me I can't get away from me Pray for me 'cause I know that I've been living wrong I can't get away from me Pray for me, I just didn't wanna be alone I can't get away from me I can't get away from me I can't get away from me