Smiling When I Die - Sasha Alex Sloan

And when I die and when I'm dead, dead and gone There'll be one child born and a world to carry on, to carry on I'm not scared of dying and I don't really care If it's peace you find in dying, well, then let the time be near If it's peace you find in dying, when dying time is here Just bundle up my coffin 'cause it's cold way down there I hear that's it's cold way down there, yeah, crazy cold way down there And when I die and when I'm gone There'll be one child born and a world to carry on, to carry on My troubles are many, they're as deep as a well I can swear there ain't no heaven but I pray there ain't no hell Swear there ain't no heaven and pray there ain't no hell But I'll never know by living, only my dying will tell Only my dying will tell, yeah, only my dying will tell And when I die and when I'm gone There'll be one child born and a world to carry on, to carry on Give me my freedom for as long as I be All I ask of living is to have no chains on me All I ask of living is to have no chains on me And all I ask of dying is to go naturally, only want to go naturally Don't want to go by the devil, don't want to go by the demon Don't want to go by Satan, don't want to die uneasy Just let me go naturally And when I die and when I'm gone There'll be one child born, there'll be one child born When I die There'll be one child born When I die There'll be one child born When I die There'll be one child born When I die There'll be one child born When I die There'll be one child born

When you're smiling When you're smiling The whole world smiles with you When you're laughing When you're laughing The sun comes shining thru But when you're crying You bring on the rain So stop your sighing be happy again Keep on smiling 'Cause when you're smiling The whole world smiles with you

Think I drank too much, again Looks like fun, but it's pretend Why do I try to fit in When I just wanna go home? And I know this isn't like me I just want people to like me Got my glass up in the air And I act like I don't care And I take some, but I shouldn't And I say things that I wouldn't And I'm just part of the crowd But I feel better now, so Keep on playing that song that I don't like I just wanna feel normal for the night Keep on kissing that guy that's not my type I just wanna feel normal for the night I should go, it's getting late But I'ma keep on dancing 'til I feel okay So keep on playing that song that I don't like I just wanna feel normal for the night Taking pictures in the dark Smoke it up 'til I can't talk Fooled myself, almost forgot That I just wanna go home (I just wanna go home) And I know this isn't like me I just want people to like me Got my glass up in the air And I act like I don't care And I take some, but I shouldn't And I say things that I wouldn't And I'm just part of the crowd But I feel better now so Keep on playing that song that I don't like I just wanna feel normal for the night Keep on kissing that guy that's not my type I just wanna feel normal for the night I should go, it's getting late But I'ma keep on dancing 'til I feel okay So keep on playing that song that I don't like I just wanna feel normal for the night I, I, I just wanna feel normal for the night I, I, I just wanna feel normal So keep on playing that song that I don't like I just wanna feel normal for the night Keep on kissing that guy that's not my type I just wanna feel normal for the night I should go, it's getting late But I'ma keep on dancing 'til I feel okay So keep on playing that song that I don't like I just wanna feel normal for the night

Yeah, I'll admit I've had sex before marriage I've smoked hella weed And then I shared it Yeah, I confess I've scrolled through Pornhub I've had impure thoughts And acted upon them So if the pearly gates Won't open up for me At least I know There's somewhere else I can go Thank God Thank God for making a Hell Thank God for making a place full of fire And greedy-ass liars Where I'm just like everyone else Thank God for Hell Yeah, I'll admit My mind's a bit dirty Only go to church If somebody's forced me Yeah, I confess I say some bad words And I haven't yet, but I bet I'll get a divorce So if the pearly gates Won't open up for me At least I know There's somewhere else I can go Thank God Thank God for making a Hell Thank God for making a place full of fire And greedy-ass liars Where I'm just like everyone else Thank God Thank God for knowing me well Thank God for making a place I can smoke And tell fucked up jokes Eternally just be myself Thank God for Hell Thank God for Hell If the pearly gates Won't open up for me Fuck 'em Thank God Thank God for making a Hell Thank God for making a place full of fire And greedy-ass liars Where I'm just like everyone else Thank God Thank God for knowing me well Thank God for making a place I can smoke And tell fucked up jokes Eternally just be myself Thank God for Hell

Thoughts Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts No medications ever made them stop All I think about is everything I'm not Instead of everything I got 'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing, so I make the joke first If I beat 'em to the punchline, then I can't get hurt Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying, but I don't know how to be How to be a good friend to me 'Cause sometimes I just feel like I'm a freak When I wake up, I just don't like what I see All the way from my head right down to my feet I wish that I thought differently But I'm scared they're all laughing, so I make the joke first If I beat 'em to the punchline, then I can't get hurt Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying, but I don't know how to be How to be a good friend to me Ooh-ooh Ooh-ooh Ooh-ooh Ooh-ooh Change Wonder if I'll ever really change, mmm 'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing, so I make the joke first If I beat 'em to the punchline, then I can't get hurt Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying, but I don't know how to be How to be a good friend to The voice inside my head that's telling me I'm okay Entertain it for a second, then I push it away Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying, but I don't know how to be How to be a good friend to me Thoughts Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts

Started crawling in my skin Looking for a way out I can feel it happening So I talk myself down 'Cause right now The walls are starting to cave in Sometimes, I wish I was somebody else When my mind starts misbehaving Is when I tell myself Okay, baby, you'll be okay You've just gotta keep, gotta keep on You just gotta keep on Rolling even on the bad days You've just gotta keep, gotta keep on You just gotta keep on Every time I run away It catches up somehow But I've been learning what to say So I talk myself down 'Cause right now The walls are starting to cave in Sometimes, I wish I was somebody else When my mind starts misbehaving Is when I tell myself Okay, baby, you'll be okay You've just gotta keep, gotta keep on You just gotta keep on Rolling even on the bad days You've just gotta keep, gotta keep on You just gotta keep on You just gotta keep on breathing Even when your lungs have run out of air Okay, baby you'll be okay You've just gotta keep, gotta keep on You just gotta keep on (just gotta keep on) Keep, gotta keep on, you just gotta keep on (just gotta keep on) Keep, gotta keep on, you just gotta keep on The walls are starting to cave in Sometimes, I wish I was somebody else When my mind starts misbehaving Is when I tell myself Okay, baby, you'll be okay You've just gotta keep, gotta keep on You just gotta keep on Rolling even on the bad days You've just gotta keep, gotta keep on You just gotta keep on You just gotta keep on breathing Even when your lungs have run out of air Okay, baby you'll be okay You've just gotta keep, gotta keep on You just gotta keep on (just gotta keep on) Keep, gotta keep on, you just gotta keep on (just gotta keep on) Keep, gotta keep on, you just gotta keep on