Oh God, Hold Onto Me - Sarah Juers

I know I've got my problems and it starts with me She saw something inside that I can't see And late at night, yeah, she'll comfort me Hold onto me, hold onto me I got a nervous habit, and I drink too much She said she hates her life and wants to change her ways She wakes in the night and whispers Oh, so quiet "Hold onto me, hold onto me Don't you ever leave, don't you ever leave I know I've got my problems and it's probably me So, hold onto me, hold onto me" Stayed up too late, and it hurts to breathe Said, "It's 4 A.M., girl, go back to sleep" Sometimes, at night, I can hear her dreams "Come rescue me, come rescue me Don't you ever leave, don't you ever leave I know we got our problems and it's probably me So, hold onto me, hold onto me" I'm a drifter's body in an open sea And I've seen my reflection staring right back at me With no place to go, and you're left all alone There's no place like home Hold onto me, hold onto me Just stay with me, just stay with me I know we got our problems and you'll probably leave So, hold onto me, hold onto me I could never leave, I will never leave So, hold onto me, hold on to me

I don't wanna say it I don't wanna take you down with me I'm trying to find a way in Careful not to make a sound Don't breathe This feels like Time is slipping Out of my hands And its haunting me Speed of light Falling quickly Out of the past Hold on to me Hold on to me Maybe I should quit it Maybe I should run and hide from you I hate to admit it It's just what I feel inside This feels like Time is slipping Out of my hands And its haunting me Speed of light Falling quickly Out of the past Hold on to me Hold on to me

If all is truly yours I guess You're bigger than I conceived 'Cause I'm barely seeing But everything is so much everything And the more I seek to learn The less I seem to know But You are greater Than I've ever wondered If everything is Yours If all is truly Yours All the birds and the seas You've set in motion this great big ocean And You trained it beautifully And the more I seek to find The less I seem to hold 'Cause if I don't know You Get to love You I have no story to be told 'Cause if all is truly Yours Then we are all Yours, too But if we sail away And cast our anchors We miss out on the truth And the truth, it sets us free And the free are living To give is to receive You gave us Your Son For us to become one Receive me, Lord Receive me, Lord I beg You to receive Receive me, Lord Receive me, Lord I beg You to receive

It goes dark And it is most definitely a moment of utter disorientation Utter lostness, no warmth, no life, no movement Yeah, yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah, yeah Love you so much that the issues I used To hold on to are nothing and minuscule Love you so much that I make it up To you whenever I flip like reciprocals Love you so much that I blocked all my exes, I blocked all the exits, I'm with you forever Love you so much that I don't even trip When they say that I'm sick and they ridiculed Love you so much that I gave up addiction, I stopped auto-clickin' And now it's all clickin' Love you so much that I changed my old Number so all their attempts are just pitiful Love you so much that I stopped sayin' thot Now I see women as God's children I see their souls and their hearts glisten Look at them glow like they're Marge Simpson Love you so much that I save my Receipts and I watch what I eat when I'm downful Love you so much that I give up my seed Even when I am beat and not in the mood Love you so much that sometimes I lose sleep 'Cause I can't come to terms with what I did to you Love you so much that I ask God to help me smile when I'm cynical I face these passing waves A lonely cast away I fight my battle Inside my shadow Hate me so much for the pain that I Caused to the ones that I truly hold dear Hate me so much that it comes out in tears Hate me so much I don't look in the mirror Hate me so much that I slip into Fantasies darker than Black Mirror seasons Sometimes I feel like just leavin' Don't need a number of reasons Hate me so much I retreat into sleep, I'm even hidin' from Jesus Feel like I'm livin' with demons, inside my closet, allegiance Hate me so much when I'm hurt then I'm Happy 'cause I tell myself I deserve it I'm in my bed with the serpents And they told me that I'm worthless Hate me so much that I don't wanna Listen when you tell me I'm a good person But you don't give up so easy, fervent, remindin' me of my purpose Hate me so much but you're teachin' me Love and I think that I'm startin' to learn it Written in crimson and cursive, quiet and curious, perfect I face these passing waves A lonely cast away I fight my battle Inside my shadow I face these passing waves A lonely cast away I fight my battle Inside my shadow

Running fast after nothing Wish I could slow down but I forgot how Searching to find my own heart beating But it's nowhere to be found Muffled by the sound of Busy ears, busy hands Busy minds, busy plans I want to rest in each moment I want to learn your eyes Forget all time and remember The splendor that life is Trying to live like I used to Present each breath and not just passing through For I want to be here I wanna really be here Feel the weight of being alive And use my ears and my hands All my mind, all my plans To rest in each moment I want to know your eyes Forget of time and remember The splendor that life And I'm through with running circles in my mind No destination to find I will settle Stop and smell each petal And remember The splendor that life is

Sorry I can't write a song about you Sorry I can't tell you I feel it, too Sorry I do all the things that I do But I truly had thoughts in my mind Of us and future, you'll come true And I know you're tryin' to be everything I need You're the sweetest thing Treated me like everything and I Sorry I didn't really think it through I had hope, but hope just wasn't enough to make it through And you showed me what it looks like to be wanted And so when I saw my reflection, I knew it wasn't right But I truly had thoughts in my mind Of future me, and all that I would be And I know he is workin' and He changin' everything He's everything we need And you showed me He's everything we need He's everything we need Making us to who we supposed to be And I'm just tryin' to go where He tellin' me be where I'm supposed to be And I will never say I never shoulda But I hate that I started and maybe it coulda been everything I guess I got lost in the feelin' You said I'm everything you dream But I don't see you when I sleep