Numb Little Bug (Piano Version) - Em Beihold

I don't feel a single thing Have the pills done too much Haven't caught up with my friends in weeks And now we're outta touch I've been driving in L.A. And the world it feels too big Like a floating ball that's bound to break Snap my psyche like a twig And I just wanna see if you feel the same as me Do you ever get a little bit tired of life Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive 'Cause you gotta survive Like your body's in the room but you're not really there Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air Am I past repair A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope A little bit tired of sinkin' There's water in my boat I'm barely breathin' Tryna stay afloat So I got these quick repairs to cope Guess I'm just broken and broke The prescriptions on its way With a name I can't pronounce And the dose I gotta take Boy, I wish that I could count 'Cause I just wanna see if this could make me happy Do you ever get a little bit tired of life Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive 'Cause you gotta survive Like your body's in the room but you're not really there Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air Am I past repair A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope A little bit tired of sinking There's water in my boat I'm barely breathin' Tryna stay afloat So I got these quick repairs to cope Do you ever get a little bit tired of life Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die Like a numb little bug that's gotta survive That's gotta survive

I bet if we kissed, it wouldn't be bad And I bet my hand fits right in your hand And we could share popcorn at the movies Watch the brand-new Spiderman Argue about Tom versus Andrew over FaceTime 'til 3 a.m But here I go again Safer to dream through a screen in my bed 'Cause I always want what I can't have I think that you're perfection, oh, my bad You're probably a projection of who I want you to be And what does it mean about me? If in the minute that you say, "yes" That's the same minute I second guess Like I'm skin and bones with nothing in between I guess bein' in love is not for me (Mm-hmm) is not for me (Mmm-hmm, mm-hmm) I bet in two months we would be done It would be two weeks of tears for a minute of fun Until there's nothing in the center of my balled up rubber band I'd say there's nothing in the shows except a boy playing a man But here I go again Already over before it begins 'Cause I always want what I can't have I think that you're perfection, oh, my bad You're probably a projection of who I want you to be And what does it say about me? If in the minute that you say, "Yes" That's the same minute I second guess Like I'm skin and bones with nothing in between I guess bein' in love, is not for me Is not for me (mm-hmm, mm-hmm) It's not for me (mm-hmm, mm-hmm)

I met hell, walking on two legs Blue eyes, big smile and the brightest face I fell in deep, but my trust was misplaced An open love, 'til he needed space I'm not here to wait around Won't stand in line, stare at the ground I need a solid answer from you Never was a game, neither one of us was ahead Said what I wanted to hear, but not what you felt instead I paid attention to everything you said And when you saw black and white, I saw infrared Oh, I saw infrared, in-infrared Infrared, in-infrared Infrared, in-infrared Had my doubts at first, but then you grew on me Ignored all others who clearly didn't see Who you were, hun, I learned that love isn't cheap It took the cost of heartbreak, I wish you weren't so care-free I'm not here to wait around Won't stand in line, stare at the ground I need a solid answer from you Never was a game, neither one of us was ahead Said what I wanted to hear, but not what you felt instead I paid attention to everything you said And when you saw black and white, I saw infrared Oh, I saw infrared, in-infrared Infrared, in-infrared Infrared, in-infrared I'm the first to admit that I made some mistakes, oh, I know it's true But underneath all of my walls, I still cared for you The time spent together outside of our minds was long overdue But next thing I know, I turn around and you say we're through I'm not here to wait around Won't stand in line, stare at the ground I got my solid answer from you Never was a game, neither one of us was ahead (I saw infrared) Said what I wanted to hear, but not what you felt instead (I saw, I saw) I paid attention to everything you said And when you saw black and white, I saw infrared Oh, I saw infrared, in-infrared Infrared, in-infrared Incra, in-infrared

My mind is a little bit, a bit like goo Always comin', comin' back to you I never had you, so I guess I couldn't lose you I'm good enough for your 911's But you bring her for all the fun Guess to you, I'm not the one To show up for all the good times When I go to bed, you make her coffee I won't pretend, it doesn't hurt me She gets your last, but I got your first, "Please" I don't wanna, I don't wanna I don't wanna hear it (Don't say it, they're in spirit) So-so-sometimes I pick you up from LAX And you talk about your ex So-so-sometimes you wouldn't notice if I left And I feel like an idiot I don't wanna, I don't wanna, I don't wanna hear it And I don't want you to tell me that you're come in spirit 'Cause honestly that's more of a stop So-so-so next time, go call a cab Resting your head upon my chest How God knows I tried my best How many people are there left Until I get to the good times? Last time I tried, I lost it, Jesus Hand on my thigh, take me in pieces I wonder why, I still need this I still need this So-so-sometimes I pick you up from LAX And you talk about your ex So-so-sometimes you wouldn't notice if I left And I feel like an idiot I don't wanna, I don't wanna, I don't wanna hear it And I don't want you to tell me that you're come in spirit 'Cause honestly that's more of a stop So-so-so next time, go call a cab I go to bed, take me in pieces You're makin' coffee, I lost it, Jesus She gets your last, but damn, I don't need this I don't need this Sometimes I pick you up from LAX And that's what I regret Next time, I won't even call you back Go call a cab