Nerves Before Dispatch - The Story So Far - Yuki Hayashi

Overseas while you're back west Sleeping off the restlessness Everything will be fine Just gotta keep my mind on your bed and your bed on my mind I'm so sore from sleeping on the floor I never see your face anymore (Maybe I'll come back around) I'm so sore from sleeping on the floor I want what we had before (You made me come back) Stifled there but you still walk in place I'm distant now they say I'm rude of late I pass up sleep as my mind debates The message I put forth Just admit if you're not sure All they'll know is second best But it still brings the restlessness Don't think that it's fine I lie because this distance is poison It fucks with my mind I'm so sore Can you give me some more space to grow what was sewn before I'm so sore Stomach's on the floor I swear I always wake up before Can't help but dwell on what you're doing I'm much too slow for the pace that you're moving A piece of us will stay unmoving But how's it ever going to feel the same again? Stifled there but you still walk in place I'm distant now they say I'm rude of late I pass up sleep as my mind debates The message I put forth Just admit if you're not sure Stifled there but you still walk in place I'm distant now they say I'm rude of late I pass up sleep as my mind debates The message I put forth Just admit if you're not sure

Say what you need to say for the last time State all the premises figuring you'll be just fine So I'll get mine you get yours And if we're both happy it's settled forevermore Holding the impression of a man when I was still a boy Said no regrets but it's hard not to feel any remorse I'm still debating whether I have even found the source Of all my discomfort and blunt discourse But I know what I want and don't need what I get I invest my ideas but get swallowed in debt And the only release is to yell and to sweat Until my clothes are soaking wet Stay under my skin Tear me limb from limb Plague me to an end I can't believe I always thought I would be there for you For now I'll learn and settle for less Shut my eyes and get some rest Feel the pulse beneath this sunken chest And maybe one day I can be there for you Isn't it true that if it hadn't been for me you'd still have no place safe to fall And all this time I thought I knew when I had no idea at all All is fair in love and war You have your gifts some say they're poor But I don't care about any of that anymore Let us depart and return when we have grown some more I wish I could say that I've seen this before The depth of the bottom the taste of the floor It leaves me restless and tired and sore But you won't break my mind just yet I battle this alone I don't want to push you I just want to grieve I don't want to push you I just want to leave

Give up and go home alone, and suffer some more This head of stone lets no one in anymore 'Cause my effort is never enough I'll start unpacking all of my stuff 'Cause I've come to know my place So let's wreck everything I've built except the base You have no idea how unproductive it is To fall in and out of you as often as I do And lately, I've been feeling grey, but today I'm alright No thanks to you Think I'll go and roam outside your boundary Walk on the ridge far away from the city Friends of friends prove untrustworthy Be gone, just like you were at the last party No SOS until the bottles are empty Now my hunger isn't wasted anymore 'Cause I'm younger, but I'm tired and I'm sore Now my hunger (I know where you've been) Isn't wasted anymore (you're ruining men, never again will I let someone in) 'Cause I'm younger (I know where you've been) But I'm tired and I'm sore (you're ruining men, never again will I let someone in) You have no idea how unproductive it is To fall in and out of you as often as I do And lately, I've been feeling grey, but today I'm alright No thanks to you You have no idea how unproductive it is To fall in and out of you as often as I do And lately, I've been feeling grey, but today I'm alright No thanks to you

Led you so far down I could tell you'd never been Told me that time's near And how it will change everything? I'm not so open like the window you are The glass just reflects the scar Told me that you had to leave But how the fuck does that change anything? Your glare is the faintest no brightness to show I made the best of what I thought was impossible You were the spade I used to dig this hole Blistered my skin to the bone Swear all the pain's done No trace or tremor here Or am I still numb? Have I been this whole year? So let me bite down Feel the clench in my teeth 'Til I come around Then relapse and repeat Then relapse and repeat Your glare is the faintest no brightness to show I made the best of what I thought was impossible You were the spade I used to dig this hole Blistered my skin to the bone Now you're gone Now you're gone Now you're gone Now you're gone Now you're

I doubted the way that the space could be filled for so long I was so headstrong that maybe just maybe I was dead wrong Tried to see if I could speak about it And now don't know how to live without it, right in the dent of my chest Feeding off your mind 'cause you know best And craving the days with you and your bed that wait back west It's never enough, no it's never enough, no it's never enough It's no fun to play this song So I'm done You said I got it all wrong But I'm sure everything we did before Doesn't really matter anymore It's no fun to play this song So I'm done Instead I got it all wrong But I'm sure everything I did before Doesn't really matter anymore Woke up covered in the sweat again Worry and fog the lens No solace I miss the fuck out of all my friends I think back to sleeping on the back bench Wish I'd let the absence tell them all of the things that I can't And now it's all just patience My father told me don't pass this up And take all the luck you can get It's never enough, no it's never enough, no it's never enough Caught you leaving You were high in the ceiling On your own, on your own Dodge your demons Take your reasons With you when you go, when you go It's no fun to play this song So I'm done You said I got it all wrong But I'm sure everything we did before Doesn't really matter anymore It's no fun to play this song So I'm done Instead I got it all wrong But I'm sure everything I did before Doesn't really matter anymore And everything we did before It doesn't really matter anymore And everything we did before It doesn't really matter anymore