Fantasized about a life Simplified, a paradise Nothing good came easy Every love would leave me No shame, 'cause I played this game And it gave me everything Lost faith 'cause I saved myself And I don't need anything So for one last time This is for my friends Who put needles in their veins Who society erased Hope their children all escape This is to the men Who wished death upon my name Tried to push me to my grave Swore I'd never fucking cave Sacrifice, sleepless nights Wasting time, a wicked vice Time had made me heartless It didn't leave me scarless No shame, 'cause I played this game And it gave me everything Lost faith 'cause I saved myself And I don't need anything Until my heart stops Until my heart stops beating This is for my friends Who put needles in their veins Who society erased Hope their children all escape This is to the men Who wished death upon my name Tried to push me to my grave Swore I'd never fucking cave I have spent my life chasing things That had only brought me pain In the end, when I'm dead Hope it was for something Hope it was all for something Hope it was for something This is for the ones Who put poison in their veins Who society degrades Hope their children can escape This is to the men Who wished death upon my name Tried to push me to my grave Swore I'd never fucking cave

(Tell me if you feel) (How do you think I feel?) Caught me off guard, I was chasing a dream Feeling like a god, like I'll die if I sleep I could never fold, I was promised a fate I'll be as your tongue, give me something to say Tear into me now, I don't feel the defeat Speak if I'm allowed, don't give a fuck if I'm seen My sickness had ruled me, my fortune erased No one came before me, they grant me no grace Don't refuse me now (Tell me if you feel) I can feel your skin Nothing beneath it (how do you think I feel?) Empty, full of spite Let impulse decide (tell me if you feel) Render me useless, I'm sleepwalking Hands do no good and you can't stop 'em Don't recognize ones who'd die for me I'll empathize if you stop talking I remember when I saw the world so clear Would give up anything if I could pause life there I don't need a thing, don't need a voice on me I just need this to stay Will you (tell me if you feel) I can feel your skin Nothing beneath it (how do you think I feel?) Empty, full of spite Let impulse decide (tell me if you feel) Feel like you'll break me Like you're replacing Like you're awake in another reality (how do you think I feel?) Go on and break me You can't escape these moments alone 'Cause you know I'm the enemy You fell into me like a trap I can't let you stay (I can't let you stay) Release yourself now We won't make a sound It's too much to undo Refuse to consume you Release yourself now We won't make a sound It's too much to undo Refuse to consume you (Tell me if you feel) I can feel your skin Nothing beneath it (how do you think I feel?) Empty, full of spite Let impulse decide (tell me if you feel) Feel like you'll break me Like you're replacing Like you're awake in another reality (how do you think I feel?) Go on and break me You can't escape these moments alone 'Cause you know I'm the enemy (tell me if you feel)

We were drinking, making jokes that night Popped a pill or two and just stayed outside She was hinting at more, I couldn't stop or ignore How could I say no? She was careless, I could not see straight Couldn't stay, I had too much on my plate You were angry and scared I was never prepared to take this on So, I brace myself and place myself in better vibes And it just keeps getting harder now Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here Take a minute to collect yourself You know that you've got a tendency to fuck things up And we're in the worst possible state that we could get to Some days I must admit that I can hardly look at you What's wrong, what's wrong with me? If you're so sick and tired of being admired, let me free (Let me free) I brace myself and place myself in better vibes And it just keeps getting harder now Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here Fade away, fade away (Fade away, fade away) Or fuel my never ending flame (Fuel my flame) Fade away, fade away 'Cause things could never be the same Fade away, fade away (Fade away) Or fuel my never ending flame (Fuel my flame) Fade away, fade away 'Cause things could never be the same I brace myself and place myself in better vibes And it just keeps getting harder now Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here I brace myself and place myself in better vibes And it just keeps getting harder now Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here

Dear old friend I'm writing this to plant an image in your head For the girl that you fucked and left for dead After she told me not a word was said But something changed inside me And if she wasn't your first I'm making sure she's your last It takes such a small human being To lose all control and to lust like a fiend So keep on praying that her fear keeps you protected I'll rest my mind And let you live on my given time I've made this my life It left me sleepless at night I watched her world fall apart in your hands (in your hands) So tell me Was it everything you hoped and dreamed? Her legs pinned down And face shoved deep into your seat You feel blood, you don't stop, you don't stop, just repeat It only makes you harder And this wait has only made me stronger You have no idea how long I've planned this out in my head He just shut his bedroom door for the last time I'm keeping still, breathing slow, with my hands tight I feel the demons inside me They feel what I feel I am connected through a mindset (I fuel the demons inside me I feel what they feel And we are all connected) He lays in his bed so hopeless I watch the life leave his eyes Slaughtered the man I despised Wrapped up his body in his bed sheets My hearts racing faster than this car Did I stab him enough? At least I made it this far I only wished you could see the look on your mother's face You've truly broken her heart I rest my mind So she can finally sleep at night I've made this my life It left me sleepless at night I watched her world fall apart in your hands (in your hands)

I still remember a time when I felt centered You're tearing out the pages of me A cold dead November with nights I won't remember I'd fallen even deeper within You'd taken my burden And made it your own And when I tried to break you You pulled me closer than I thought I could get You're sinking deeper in me And there's no way you'll be freed Freed from me Why am I always the crutch now? I've carried my fate out My failures had cost me Displayed for the whole crowd And I've laid down to sleep With no intention to wake My mother's prayed for my peace But it's been years and she waits For me to break Why am I always the crutch now? I've carried my fate out My failures had cost me Displayed for the whole crowd And I've laid down to sleep With no intention to wake My mother's prayed for my peace But it's been years and she waits