I'm a mess, i've been a mess for months I know it's real I've been doing anything i can to numb how it feels And i know that putting all this liquor in my body Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me Still i wait for you And i know It's late and i wanna go home But I'm scared of how quiet it'll be without you I hate taking off my own clothes Getting in my own bed Spinning thoughts about you It's late and i'm waiting behind For the drugs to kick in And erase my body I hate how it's all in my head Smoking your cigarettes Thinking you could still want me I'm a mess, i've been a mess for months I know it's true I look for validation from anybody that's not you, yeah And i know that putting all this liquor in my body Won't exonerate me from the guilt that haunts me No, there's nothing in the world that's gonna stop me Still i wait for you And i know It's late and i wanna go home But I'm scared of how quiet it'll be without you I hate taking off my own clothes Getting in my own bed Spinning thoughts about you It's late and i'm waiting behind For the drugs to kick in And erase my body I hate how it's all in my head Smoking your cigarettes Thinking you could still want me It's late and I'm waiting behind For the drugs to kick in And erase my body I hate how it's all in my head And i know i'm a mess Thinking you could still want me

You've got the best of both worlds You're the kind of girl who can take down a man, And lift him back up again You are strong but you're needy, Humble but you're greedy Based on your body language, Your shouted cursive I've been reading Your style is quite selective, Though your mind is rather reckless Well I guess it just suggests That this is just what happiness is And what a beautiful mess this is Well it's like picking up trash in dresses Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write Kind of turn themselves into knives And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear 'Cause here we are, here we are Although you are biased I love your advice Your comebacks they're quick And probably have to do with your insecurities There's no shame in being crazy, Depending on how you take these Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging And what a beautiful mess this is It's like, picking up trash in dresses Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say Kind of turn themselves into blades Kind and courteous is a life I've heard But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt Oh dear, cause here we are, Here we are Here we are Here we are, Here we are... Here we are, We're still here What a beautiful mess this is It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes And through timeless words And priceless pictures We'll fly like birds Not of this earth And tides they turn And hearts disfigure But that's no concern When we're wounded together And we've torn our dresses And stained our shirts But it's nice today Oh the wait was so worth it

I guess I'm messy, I'm messy, I'm messy I'm all messed up I'm messy, I'm messy I'm all messed up I'm messy, I'm messy I'm all messed up I'm messy as a boy and I don't give a fuck Walk into the room with my skirt tucked into my shoes I skated here, I'm sweating, had a good day how about you? Let's talk about these dang they stand way talking way over me Chatting shit, I'm not a kid, well this is patronising Then explain how you studied this at Uni so you'd know More than me about the thing that paid for my phone Why don't you make it a hat trick and comment on my look? I don't know who you think I am But your bitch is not one I'm good at what I do And don't ever let anyone Tell me that your song's okay But sweetie did you know A couple changes here and there would make it super cool (It would be so awesome, like so much better) They say I'm a hot mess I don't care what they say They say I'm a hot mess Cause I know what I'm doing Guess I'm just a hot mess Cause I say what I like and what I hate Hot mess Everyday, everyday They say I'm a hot mess I don't care what they say They say I'm a hot mess Cause I know what I'm doing Guess I'm just a hot mess Cause I say what I like and what I hate Hot mess Everyday, everyday, everyday I guess I'm messy, I'm messy, I'm messy I'm all messed up I'm messy, I'm messy I'm all messed up I'm messy, I'm messy I'm all messed up I'm messy as a boy And I don't give a fuck Don't you think she'd look a little bit nicer If she combed her hair every once in a while Look at those jeans, so messy, jeez You know what Her natural hair color would look so much better on her with her bone structure She probably doesn't even write her own songs Open up my mouth and rap some fiction prose bro But all that you can focus on is my makeup and clothes I don't have perfect skin, I don't live in fairytale land Stop telling me to grown some balls, I'm happy as a woman Also on that subject, maybe you should change your look Your presentation's roughy and it's time you really took This whole thing seriously, do you really want success? Just cause I'm a girl I think that you think you know the best (Well let's be honest, I do) They say I'm a hot mess I don't care what they say They say I'm a hot mess Cause I know what I'm doing Guess I'm just a hot mess Cause I say what I like and what I hate Hot mess Everyday, everyday They say I'm a hot mess I don't care what they say They say I'm a hot mess Cause I know what I'm doing Guess I'm just a hot mess Cause I say what I like and what I hate Hot mess Everyday, everyday, they say I'm so stupid please tell me How the world works, I'm female you see Please stop using such big words My brain can't take it I'm just a little GIRLI They say I'm a hot mess I don't care what they say They say I'm a hot mess Cause I know what I'm doing Guess I'm just a hot mess Cause I say what I like and what I hate Hot mess Everyday, everyday They say I'm a hot mess I don't care what they say They say I'm a hot mess Cause I know what I'm doing Guess I'm just a hot mess Cause I say what I like and what I hate Hot mess Everyday, everyday They say I'm a hot mess I don't care what they say They say I'm a hot mess Cause I know what I'm doing Guess I'm just a hot mess Cause I say what I like and what I hate Hot mess Everyday, everyday, everyday I guess I'm messy, I'm messy, I'm messy I'm all messed up I'm messy as a boy and I don't give a fuck (messy)

I haven't been lying here before Just being, don't get too near before I get closer Wait for me, wait for me until I'm close enough We could count to five If you're alone and I'm not prepared I will be gone for a while, coming back in slow motion I will be scared, without knowing it Then give me a minute And I want to meet you halfway But I cannot yet Would you wait for me? Into the unknown Would you wait for me? Into the unknown I haven't been lying here before, just being I've got a feeling that you're feeling it See me, I see you though we're not around Are we doin' it? It can fall apart or build up - I've been told Fear showed me how fragile this is I seem to lean back on my heels Afraid I won't be caught I want to meet you halfway But I cannot yet Would you wait for me? Until the unknown Would you wait for me? Until the unknown Would you wait for me? Until the unknown

You used to say 'the world is changing, while we're not' Time passing too fast - You fought If we run any faster now, we'll lose all we got At least that's what you thought The world is still changing - now so am I I was asking - again and again "Where you at? Where? You seem lost in there" But you were no longer in there You vanished like fog through the air I might have whispered "catch me if you can" Oh man, I was hanging in a liana Oh oh oh A while back I started dying I was slowly dying over a two year's time Sometimes you tried to hold on Sometimes you just let go Last year you were a fetus in the void Last year you were born You got up on your feet, felt incomplete Sometimes you stumbled, sometimes you fell Cause this is not life's parallel Luckily, I've been a human before But I'm still not sure what we came here for I might have whispered "catch me if you can" Oh man, I was hanging in a liana Oh oh oh Oh man, I was hanging in a liana I might have whispered "catch me if you can" Oh man, I was hanging in a liana But only to get over to somewhere else Somewhere else than...?

I was a container - I am nothing now He made a flood on the floor - and I was a drainer Her guts leaked - I was the retainer His lusts flooded - and I was the restrainer She threw herself up - and I was the container And again - here we go You say you're oh so low Off course you're starring in the show I could even make your portfolio But I'm the only one you'll share it with though And I entered the void Just in time, nothing's destroyed Should I be worried Freud? For everything that I avoid Feel less like a human, might be a humanoid But I still feel - a little My zest was overrated - it felt good - and I was devastated I guess this is something that I created And I never really demonstrated But couldn't you see that I was slowly deflated? Oh, I guess it's hard to see others When you're always so got damn frustrated I - I never ran away Yet nothing in my bag caught my attention One would guess distance is a prevention But some made a new dimension And now one is haunting me And I entered the void Just in time, nothing's destroyed Should I be worried Freud? For everything that I avoid Feel less like a human, might be a humanoid But I still feel - a little And again - here we go You say you're oh so low You say you're oh so low I - I never ran away I was there I was always there

When there is eventually silence The suspense is breathing as echoes in the walls It seems it's time to break My footsteps seems to be a red thread Of apathy, been following me ever since Under the illusion of a body armor, there is marks from everyday The distance to the madness undresses the mind Force me to see what my mind. force me to see what I shut off And I can't seem to turn of my mind When there is eventually silence The surface gets hit by frequently portions of rage It seems we're not familiar I fear I'll be wiped out by a big Burst of accumulation when I least expect it My fear is a lasting drizzle of rage Eroding what's left, with no turning back The distance to the madness undresses the mind Force me to see what my mind. force me to see what I shut off And I can't seem to turn of my mind There was no sign of an increasing heart rate So to show my human trait it had to rise eventually It feels unnecessary now Now, now when it's all over

Everything we do is wrong We're trapped in a mesh of lies Climbing out means leaving I Feel hamstrung as I'm here My footsteps are like grit in the air I can't move as I do it wrong We do it wrong, we all do it wrong And I can't move ...can't move as I do it wrong Always been a little suspicious Suspicious of those large herds But I have been a fool. I've been a fool The fundamental seams to be a lie My footsteps are like grit in the air I can't move as I do it wrong We do it wrong, we all do it wrong And I can't move ...can't move as I do it wrong My footsteps are like grit in the air Like grit in the air