melanie martinez

I'm glued to the thoughts in my mind (mind) They pester, they go walk in the sky I am glued to the love in you (in you) It swallows me whole, you're hard to let go Oh, that's not what I wanna do (no, no) Perfectly attached like a noodle in the soup (huh?) You're good with the X-Y-Z (Y-Z) I'm good with the A-B-C And D-E-F-G, H-I-J-K, baby We all have our strong suits, built differently Different experience, different needs I know we can't die at the same time (oh, so sad), but please I don't wanna think about the morbid parts of life no morе I'm tryin' just to focus on the things that hold me so damn close I'm sticky, sticky, stuck and solidly sealed up to this reality I'm seein' not what I wish to be achieving, the old idea of me is Glued up, sometimes it's too much I'm fucked up and clueless (clueless) I'm stuck in the vortex, stuck in the vortex Glue-less, life would be borin' Empty but no hurting (hurting) Is it necessary? Detachment is scary When my petty feet start to sway (sway) You better turn around the other way (walk away) When the doubt starts creepin' in (oh no) It's hard to let go of old instinctual Patterns that I picked up from my environment since a baby Cut the negative self-talk and cut out my procrastination Being sticky stuck, glue those old habits shut Paste me to a new way of bein' somethin' to breathe new life in me again Glued up, sometimes it's too much I'm fucked up and clueless (clueless) Stuck in the vortex, stuck in the vortex Glue-less, and life would be boring Empty but no hurtin' (hurtin', no hurtin') Is it necessary? Detachment is scary Glued up, sometimes it's too much I'm fucked up and clueless, oh Glue-less, oh Glue-less, life would be boring Empty, but no hurting Hurting, no Glued up, sometimes it's too much I'm fucked up and clueless Clueless (I am clueless) Glue-less, and life would be boring Empty, but no hurting No hurting (is it necessary? Detachment is scary)

Count up your portions, count up your checks Feeding your fam while you're coming at my neck When ya gonna freeze with the cruel dramatics? I'm not inspired by your foolish practice Butter your bullshit, set up your fence I'm just the chicken giving you the egg Soon you're gonna see that your breath was wasted Don't speak too soon on your doubts, you're making A big deal out of a little thing Why should I try to conform to formulated paths? When clearly all my instincts led to something more magical? Am I just a number? 'Cause it seems like that's your goal You push us past our limits just to watch decimals grow Oh, I need a reason why I'm looked at like a joke Until I prove you wrong like I've done time and time before And all your idle teaching and your criticism lack The potential to penetrate my solid golden path To decide what my future is, I'm my own clairvoyant There's no controlling me Imagination on ascend Take me to Venus, let me explode I'm ready to pop like a volcano Jump over me like you're playing hot lava Emotions on one hundred thousand, who's gonna Shake me like soda creme, but, of course Use all your words to distract from the source Of where all the growth on the paper happens Leave me alone in my own concoction Pricking all my fingertips to carve out many roads Pushing out the petals from the bud of what I know Am I just a number? 'Cause it seems like that's your goal You push us past our limits just to watch decimals grow Oh, I need a reason why I'm looked at like a joke Until I prove you wrong like I've done time and time before And all my intuition says is, "Expansion comes first" But not just by material, I'm talking 'bout in here My heart space and my cranium must be loved too, my dear Don't push me to the edge until I'm useless and can't feel They replaced their search for knowledge With the reach of many material gains They lack the tenderness of the sensitive Empathetic bodies crying from the pain It's too late to grow their frame Of mind it seems that it's already made No use in arguing with someone who doesn't Wanna prioritize birthing of creation Am I just a number? Am I just a number? Am I just a number? Am I just a number? Am I just a number? 'Cause it seems like that's your goal You push us past our limits just to watch our numbers grow Oh, I need a reason why I'm looked at like a joke Until I prove you wrong which I've done time and time before And all my intuition says is, "Expansion comes first" But not just by material I'm talking 'bout in here My heart space and my cranium must be loved too, my dear Don't push me to the edge until I'm useless and can't feel

You called the other day, I stayed away I left your shit on read four times today And it felt like bliss, used to miss your kiss Now I'm hop, skip, jumpin' over narcissists Throwing all your stuff into the abyss Now the role is reversed and, told you, I'm a switch How you like my spit? That's for all the piss that you left me in See the horns on my head? They're from goddesses Goddesses, on God No, I never knew what it meant What it meant to be content with you Everything I expressed, I professed It never quite made it through Said, "It's all in my head," all in my head Whenever I spoke my truth, no I won't defend you to all my friends This time, I refuse If you bite my hand again I will never feed you, you can call me evil Take it to the grave if you wanna play pretend I won't be mistreated, please call me conceited Took me way too long to put this to bed Loving you was lethal, guess that makes me evil, evil Evil, evil, evil Remember when you smiled right to my face? As all my little tears of oxalate They made a shape, revealed a snake Now I'm stop, drop, rollin' over all your jokes Every time you tell a lie, I'm praying that you choke Should've listened to the signs and the horoscopes Hope you never cope, hope you slip on soap Crack your head like an egg, wanna see the yolk You were such a hoax (ho-) No, I never knew what it meant What it meant to be content with you Everything I expressed, I professed It never quite made it through Said, "It's all in my head," all in my head Whenever I spoke my truth, no I won't defend you to all my friends This time, I refuse If you bite my hand again I will never feed you, you can call me evil Take it to the grave if you wanna play pretend I won't be mistreated, please call me conceited Took me way too long to put this to bed Loving you was lethal, guess that makes me evil, evil If you bite my hand again I will never feed you, you can call me evil Take it to the grave if you wanna play pretend I won't be mistreated, please call me conceited Took me way too long to put this to bed Loving you was lethal, guess that makes me evil, evil Evil, evil, evil, evil Evil, evil, evil, evil Loving you was lethal, guess that makes me evil

(Ah, ooh) (Ah, ooh) A seed in mother And I chose that space for me Little does she know it's free, ooh yeah I'm undercover As they wait for joy, I cry On a mission, learn and die, ooh yeah And I know my brother He'll make the journey later on Conversations in the cosmos, yeah And it's all a game now But once I'm in the world, it's lost Memories gone to evolve, ooh, yeah Merging cells and flesh, I'm baby building all my insides Right to see the future right before my eyes I know what's coming, what's coming In the womb, get me out now, safe, and I'm sound Cut the cord, I'm comin' Out the blue, belly water too hot and cold Through with it, oh now she's birthing Feeling alive, the closer that I get to my life I'm pushing out the center, the core I'm swimming through the flower no more, no more All of the planning Yet I still feel unprepared Kicking, screaming 'cause I'm scared, ooh yeah And I know she suffers Contractions of Hell and death Eyes are bloody screaming out, ooh yeah Merging spirit, mind, and body Building all my insides Right to see the future right before my eyes I know what's coming, what's coming In the womb, get me out now, safe, and I'm sound Cut the cord, I'm comin' Out the blue, belly water too hot and cold Through with it, oh now she's birthing Feeling alive, the closer that I get to my life I'm pushing out the center, the core I'm swimming through the flower no more, no more Life is death, is life, is death, is life, is

Death is life, is death, is life, is death, is life, is They're carving my name in the grave again The flowers are fresh and their faces wet My body has died, but I'm still alive Look over your shoulder, I'm back from the dead Lighting all your candles to draw me in Saying all the same things, I'm gone this time Your words mean nothing, so take 'em back And meet me here across the plane The other side, I'm not far When you aren't around, I sink into the ground I try to pretend I'm closer to you Never understand it You're always on my mind, I cannot help it I don't wanna be carrying the weight on my shoulders Death has come to me, kissed me on the cheek, gave me closure Immortal by design I'll be meeting you here every time Back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead (death), back from the dead (death) I'm back from the dead (death), back from the dead (death) I'm back from the dead (death), back from the dead (death) I'm back from the dead (death), back from the- (I'm back) (I'm back) Death, death, death (I'm back) Death, death (I'm back) They're saying my name in their prayers again I flicker the lights so they understand I won't say goodbye, I'm right by your side We're screaming and pleading, this separation ends Doing all your witchcraft to pull me in Burning all your sage to connect our line I show my presence, you run away in fear of ghosts I try to talk, the barriers are too strong When you aren't around, I sink into the ground I try to pretend I'm closer to you Never understand it You're always on my mind, I cannot help it I don't wanna be carrying the weight on my shoulders Death has come to me, kissed me on the cheek, gave me closure Immortal by design I'll be meeting you here every time Back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead (death), back from the dead (death) I'm back from the dead (death), back from the dead I'm back from the dead (death), back from the dead (death) I'm back from the dead (death), back from the dead Please don't ever worry (back from the dead, back from the dead) (I'm back from the dead, back from the dead) I know it's morbid (I'm back from the dead, back from the dead) But we all die one day (I'm back from the dead, back from the dead) I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the dead I'm back from the dead, back from the- (I'm back)

Write this down baby I'm not physically fulfilled You've never held it down all night And you're selfish 'cause you always think your ass is always right And you never see the lesson when it's right in front your eyes Are you writing this shit down? 'Cause baby boy, I think it's time Time you learned a thing or two 'Bout how to keep a girl like me with you Time you learned how to switch it up I'm tired of running to you, just give up 'Cause I didn't sign up for this Had to make it times more than you, boy When I sacrificed blood for you I sacrificed blood Write this shit in your notebook, baby Sincе you never wrote lovе letters to me, to me Don't forget all the things I taught you You'll need it for someone who isn't me, ain't me What's the point in your 'I love yous' When they don't hold any weight? You touch your computer much more than you have ever touched me Every night you come back home then you just go right to sleep Laying next to just a friend who occasionally fucks me Time you know now just how I feel Since you told me you'll wait forever Time you start growing up Age is nothing if you're not evolved Dear, I didn't have time for this But I still gave you my all I sacrificed blood for you I sacrificed blood Write this shit in your notebook, baby Since you never wrote love letters to me, to me Don't forget all the things I taught you You'll need it for someone who isn't me, ain't me

I'm not a bad guy So don't treat me bad if I'm feeling sad, alright? Please don't be mad if I don't smile back, alright? If I - up my words, don't think I'm absurd, alright? Alright? I'm physically exhausted Tired of my knuckles beating I'm chewing gum to pass this time of sadness Can't you see it? You're too busy seeking selfish wishes Don't care how I'm feeling You write me up and say it's love And I can't believe it Baby, can you meet me tonight in detention? I can feel your blood pressure rise, - this tension Let me crawl up into your mind, did I mention? Pretending everything's alright is detention De-de-tention De-de-tention Pretending everything's alright is (shh) The teachers don't care about me - How I feel as long as I make money-ey-ey-ey They let them do whatever they want to me They're the customer, I'm chopped meat I'm chopped meat I'm physically exhausted Tired of my knuckles beating I'm chewing gum to pass this time of sadness Can't you see it? You're too busy seeking selfish wishes Don't care how I'm feeling You write me up and say it's love And I can't believe it Baby, can you meet me tonight in detention? I can feel your blood pressure rise, - this tension Let me crawl up into your mind, did I mention? Pretending everything's alright is detention De-de-tention De-de-tention Pretending everything's alright is detention I wanna go home and you say, "Now is not the time" Being all alone in back of the classroom, ah Start calling up my phone tryna say that I've been out of line When all I ever asked was to go to the bathroom Baby, can you meet me tonight in detention? I can feel your blood pressure rise, - this tension Let me crawl up into your mind, did I mention? Pretending everything's alright is detention Tonight, I can feel your blood pressure rise Let me crawl up into your mind Pretending everything's alright (is detention)