Lord I'm Trying - Jill Johnson & Stefan Sundström

It's been a week and I can't tell you a thing I did I can't sleep, all my friends they're worried again It's a cycle I won't outgrow I'm the punchline of some sick joke I can't bring myself to leave home But I'm terrified to be alone I say that I'm fine but it feels like I'm dying Why do the words in my head get so violent? Half of the time I'm just barely surviving But I'm trying, I'm trying No surprise that I'm not one for resolutions Even in the best times, I'm too scared to smell the roses It's a cycle I won't outgrow I'm the punchline of some sick joke I can't bring myself to leave home But I'm terrified to be alone I say that I'm fine but it feels like I'm dying Why do the words in my head get so violent? Half of the time I'm just barely surviving But I'm trying, I'm trying Tryna be everything to everybody I feel so much that I almost feel nothing Half of the time I'm just barely surviving But I'm trying, I'm trying I'm trying, I'm trying Yeah, I'm trying, I'm trying, oh Yeah I'm trying, I'm trying I'm trying, (I'm trying) I'm trying Yeah I'm trying I'm trying

I go out, find a crowd Never say who I am Then I go make a joke Make 'em laugh 'cause I can On my own, I don't know how to get out of my head Million likes, million eyes But every high comes down To me alone, missing home Wishing that I could bounce back like I used to But I don't know how to I promise, I promise I'm trying I know it might not look like it When you see me singing on side walks You laugh and tell me that I got no reason not be happy But I barely made it through last week I can't stand me being like this 'Cause everything's harder to fight it But I promise, I promise I'm trying Pretty girls only work 'til I go mess it up And a glass only lasts 'til the next morning comes I don't know how to stop it I'm low on my options But I promise, I promise I'm trying I know it might not look like it When you see me singing on side walks You laugh and tell me that I got no reason not be happy But I barely made it through last week I can't stand me being like this 'Cause everything's harder to fight it But I promise, I promise I'm trying Don't wanna let you down I don't wanna let you down I don't wanna let me down I promise, I promise, I promise I'm trying Might not look like it When I'm singing on side walks Everyone tells me that I got no reason not be happy But I barely made it through last week I can't stand me being like this 'Cause everything's harder to fight it But I promise, I promise I'm trying