Just Kidding - Cluster

I wish I was dead sometimes So I wouldn't have to check my phone I wish I was dead sometimes So I could spend a day alone And not feel like everybody hates me Making plans on another planet daily lately I wish I was dead sometimes Haha, just kidding I packaged up my pain today I wrapped the box in cellophane It's clear so I can see inside To watch worst of me escape But I like your apartment I like how your hair smells It buries all my problems Until I forget the details That's all I can talk about Without hurting your feelings So check out all the love I get It's fake and doesn't happen at all It doesn't happen at all I wish I was dead sometimes So I wouldn't have to check my phone I wish I was dead sometimes So I could spend a day alone And not feel like everybody hates me Making plans on another planet daily lately I wish I was dead sometimes Haha, just kidding I buried all my pain today Shallow, not too far away (not far) If you look, then you could see inside (inside) And watch the worst of me escape Plan A, plan B I'm numb but still I'm hurting Mental, physical, it's cyclical But what they hand me Plan C, plan D You can't kill what you can't see I'll take on every little thing you hand me But I like your apartment I like how your hair smells It buries all my problems Until I forget the details That's all I can talk about Without hurting your feelings So check out all the love I get It's fake and doesn't happen at all It doesn't happen at all I wish I was dead sometimes So I wouldn't have to check my phone I wish I was dead sometimes So I could spend a day alone And not feel like everybody hates me Making plans on another planet daily lately I wish I was dead sometimes Haha, just kidding (He's just joking, it's alright) Not far away And repeat

너와 나란히 걷다가 갑자기 가슴이 시려 팔짱을 꼈어 좋은 사람이라는 말 그 말을 들은 날 하루 종일 우울했어 우리 둘은 친구 같아서 잔잔해서 아무 일 없을 거라고 얘기하던 너에게 말할까 좋아하고 있다고 더는 늦지 않게 말해볼까 지나가는 말처럼 재미없는 농담처럼 아무 생각도 안 했다며 태연하게 딴 곳만 보고 있는 내 모습이 우스워 말할까 오래 기다렸다고 강아지처럼 착하게 말해볼까 지나가는 말처럼 재미없는 농담처럼 네가 불러줬던 내 이름이 처음으로 예쁘게 들린 그날부터 사랑이라는 걸 알게 되었을 땐 이미 늦었을 테니까 말할걸 후회한다고 해도 더는 늦지 않게 말해볼걸 사랑하고 있다고 농담처럼