Today, I talked to a semi-stranger A girl that I sorta know But every encounter at the corner grocery Holds potential for our relationship to grow And half of my brain was totally afraid That she'd hate me, never want to see me again And half of my brain was equally afraid That she'd like me, want to be my friend I am learning to love I am learning to let myself be loved How did I miss this lesson when I was young? How did I miss this lesson when I was young? How did I miss this lesson when I was young? Yesterday, I was anxious and alone So I called a friend to make me feel ok And for a moment, I found myself Angry at him for offering help When I should have just been grateful For what he gave I am learning to love I am learning to let myself be loved How did I miss this lesson when I was young? How did I miss this lesson when I was young? How did I miss this lesson when I was young? Be gentle with me I might not be ready Be gentle with me I might not be ready I am learning to love I am learning to let myself be loved How did I miss this lesson when I was young? How did I miss this lesson when I was young? How did I miss this lesson when I was young? Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah

I haven't felt safe since 2007 I haven't felt safe since 2001 Pacing around my apartment To keep my heart open Call my friend in a cold sweat Am I dying? I don't wanna be afraid of strangers or being lonely I don't wanna play it safe I'll be brave, I'll sing karaoke I wanna smile real big I wanna fucking live I wanna smile real big I wanna fucking live I haven't felt safe since 2007 I haven't felt safe since 2001 I'm a little girl with a woman's past Never gotten used to having tits and ass Never gotten used to living alone I swear to god it's gotta be unnatural I don't wanna be afraid of aging or gaining weight I want to take up space I wanna get up real early and stay up late I wanna smile real big I wanna fucking live I wanna smile real big I wanna fucking live I wanna smile real big I wanna fucking live I wanna smile real big I wanna fucking live

It's my sunny disposition that you liked You poured me coke and vodka Drink it baby, be nice And you knew you would get away So you didn't try to hide I watched them shake your hand Their obedient laughter cut my mind Don't want your money for my silence I don't care who knows your name Don't tell your friends that I'm a lying to convince them I'm insane Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh I need you to know that I'm not too proud of this My strength lies within my gentleness And I'm already hurt so now I don't have to hide And I hold all the heads of my brothers and sisters high Don't want your money for my silence I don't care who knows my name Don't tell your friends that I'm a lying to convince them I'm insane Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh I'm free, I'm floating over my body on the floor I grab it, I tell myself, don't be ashamed anymore Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh Over my dead body, oh Over my dead

Put my t-shirt on Look at myself and yawn Is it okay to be ordinary? Take chemicals To try to be more whole Maybe a fractions all I'm meant to feel I can't have it all And I wouldn't want to I can't have it all And I wouldn't want to You put your makeup on Sit on the bed and watch I love the way you care Enough to comb your hair I take my t-shirt off I know it's what you want I love your love for me So ordinary I can't have it all And I wouldn't want to I can't have it all And I wouldn't want to Our life is small but it's big enough for me I don't need any fancy things, oh Our life is small but it's big enough for me I can't have it all And I wouldn't want to I can't have it all And I wouldn't want to I can't have it all And I wouldn't want to I can't have it all And I wouldn't want to

Crush me under the weight Bitterness Jealousy Hate Cause I'm a fucking cockroach And you can't kill me I'm a fucking cockroach and you can't kill me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me Crush me

Wake up, hand upon my forehead Can't believe this is the way I live Even now Still somehow Told my mom it was the last time Told myself maybe it's OK One more time One more time I don't wanna call first thing in the morning Desperate for help to feel normal Over and over and over again I keep doing bad, bad, bad, bad, bad I did a bad thing I wasn't thinking I did a bad thing I wasn't thinking Get caught in empty conversations Fake friends and chemical temptations Turn them down Turn them down This time I will take it slowly Say no to everything I don't need Turn it down Turn it down I don't wanna call first thing in the morning Desperate for help to feel normal Over and over and over again I keep doing bad, bad, bad, bad, bad I did a bad thing I wasn't thinking I did a bad thing I wasn't thinking I don't ever, ever, ever wanna go to sleep I, I, I don't ever, ever, ever wanna go to sleep I, I, I don't ever, ever, ever wanna go to sleep 'Cause I want more and I want more until I wake up Turn around And I did a bad thing I did a bad thing Over and over and over again Over and over and over again Over and over and over again Over and over and over and over again

There's fortune in the furlough And on the other side Wrap ourselves in blankets The crossing of a bridge so wide, so high It's murky in the meadow As we draw in the lines we threw Leveraging the ledgers Forgetting all the blood we drew But what I do remember What I do remember is you What I do remember What I do remember is you It's hollow in the harvest What I've lost I count as gain Filling up the firmament Visions of the one you gave away But what I do remember What I do remember is you What I do remember Oh, what I do remember is you

I gave you all the love I got I gave you more than I could give I gave you love I gave you all that I have inside And you took my love You took my love Didn't I tell you What I believe? Did somebody say that A love like that won't last? Didn't I give you All that I've got to give, baby? I gave you all the love I got I gave you more than I could give Gave you love I gave you all that I have inside And you took my love You took my love I keep crying I keep trying for you There's nothing like you and I This is no ordinary love No ordinary love This is no ordinary love No ordinary love Didn't I tell you What I believe Did somebody say that A love like that won't last Didn't I give you All that I've got to give, baby This is no ordinary love No ordinary love This is no ordinary love No ordinary love I keep crying I keep trying for you There's nothing like you and I This is no ordinary love No ordinary Love This is no ordinary love No ordinary Love Keep trying for you Keep crying for you Keep lying for you Keep flying I'm falling Keep trying for you Keep crying for you Keep lying for you Keep flying I'm falling Keep trying for you Keep crying for you Keep lying for you Keep flying Keep trying for you Keep crying for you Keep lying for you Keep flying Keep trying for you Keep crying for you Keep lying for you Keep flying

15 months and they would Drag you from your throne But you ain't got no place to go You're the bad one from the day you were born You can run I dont think that you can hide Have you found the knife and cigarettes inside of your locker with your books? Smoking weed with Joe and Rock inside his house You can run I don't think that you can hide (Chorus) Mom wants you to come back home She keeps crying when I call her on the phone Won't you give this thing a chance? You were not what you were When you were young You were not what you were When you were young I was fucked up when you needed me the most Trying to starve myself to death I still feel like I did something always wrong You can run I don't think that you can hide (Chorus) Mom wants you to come back home She keeps crying when I call her on the phone Won't you give this things a chance? Cause you were not what you were When you were young You were not what you were When you were young

This was never the way I planned, not my intention I got so brave, drink in hand, lost my discretion It's not what I'm used to, just wanna try you on I'm curious for you caught my attention I kissed a girl, I liked it, the taste of her cherry chapstick I kissed a girl just to try it, hope my girlfriend don't mind it It felt so wrong, it felt so right, don't mean I'm in love tonight I kissed a girl, I liked it No, I don't even know your name, it doesn't matter You're my experimental game, just human nature It's not what good girls do, not how they should behave My head gets so confused, hard to obey I kissed a girl, I liked it, the taste of her cherry chapstick I kissed a girl just to try it, hope my girlfriend don't mind it It felt so wrong, it felt so right, don't mean I'm in love tonight I kissed a girl, I liked it You girls you are so magical, soft skin, red lips, so kissable Hard to resist, so touchable, too good to deny it It ain't no big deal, it's innocent I kissed a girl, I liked it, the taste of her cherry chapstick I kissed a girl just to try it, hope my girlfriend don't mind it It felt so wrong, it felt so right, don't mean I'm in love tonight I kissed a girl, I liked it