Today, up on this hill I'm counting all the killers They sway as they swarm A look of gluttons in their eyes They mutter as the body loses warmth They pick your bones like locks inside a tomb And take great care to not take care of you Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one While I was learning to live We all were living a lie I guess you got what you wanted So I will settle for a slaughterhouse soaked in blood and betrayal It's always somebody else Somebody else was me You want the real smile? Or the one I used to practice Not to feel like a failure? I don't need you to do it for me I don't need you to understand I don't need you to hide it from me I just want to feel like any other man I won't show you the whole story I won't show you the aftermath I won't show you my allegory Don't look away Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one I'm not ahead of my time I just drew the first breath If I'm alive tomorrow I will alleviate the pressure By cutting you out of me I found my bottom line Dead on the front lines I know I'll never go home So set fire to your ships And past regrets and be free I don't need you to do it for me I don't need you to understand I don't need you to hide it from me I just want to feel like any other man I won't show you my whole story I won't show you the aftermath I won't show you my allegory Don't look away Here's an unexplainable one What have you done? What have you done? While I was learning to live You taught me how to die I guess I got what I wanted Another needle in the back through purified scarification It wasn't somebody else You fucking did it to me You want a real smile? I haven't smiled in years

My heart is telling me that you were gonna change But I know, my heart is lying right to my face, yeah My heart is making up excuses for your ways But I wish that my heart knew when I should walk away It lets me down, it helps me as I get back up Off the ground, while telling me that this is love But I found, it wasn't really on my side Now, I think it's time I tell my heart to just butt out, keep its opinion to itself I should just listen to my head 'Cause it's the one who knows what's best It tells me not to love you But my heart says, just forgive you Oh, but it's not thinking clearly I wish that I could leave my heart out of this Leave my heart out of this I'm done feeling like a stranger to myself So I know, I've got to put all my feelings on a shelf, yeah It lets me down, it helps me as I get back up Off the ground, while telling me that this is love But I found, it wasn't really on my side Now, I think it's time I tell my heart to just butt out, keep its opinion to itself I should just listen to my head 'Cause it's the one who knows what's best It tells me not to love you But my heart says, just forgive you Oh, but it's not thinking clearly I wish that I could leave my heart out of this Leave my heart out of this Sometimes I wish it'd just shut up And let me think, I've had enough I need to just make up my mind Make up my mind So that's why... It tells me not to love you But my heart says, just forgive you Oh, but it's not thinking clearly I wish that I could leave my... Leave my heart out of this Leave my heart out of this, yeah L-l-l-leave my heart, l-l-l-leave my heart No-oh, no, oh-oh-oh