Everything That Is Missing - Shilo Ben Hod

Doomscrolling, lying awake A dirty dog running free on the interstate A Bloody Mary is a hot wing in a glass Lit some candles just to piss in the bath All the best films are about a man with a vice Getting stuck in Reno, lying to his wife Is it intermittent fasting or an eating disorder? Do I need all my old birthday cards or am I a hoarder? Everything that feels good is bad And all the things that make me happy make you feel sad I only buy books for the cool, colorful cover I like smelling gasoline and getting burnt in the summer Call up your Christian family and reconnect Find some hallowed ground to disrespect Cry by the grave of a guy you met once Text somebody at midnight who you ain't seen in months Remind someone you meet that you met them before Keep giving them context until they just fake that they remember Everything that feels good is bad And all the things that make me happy make you feel sad Just when I think I've gone and got it down Turns out I'm still the same old dumbass clown You know, you know, you know, you know you gotta overdo it Double down to power through it Life's a hot flash A blood bath A car crash And your heart's smashed Have an honest conversation with an ex about boundaries Fall asleep in each other's arms watching the tv Lie to your therapist so they like you more Dig up some repressed memories to endure Either way Everything that feels good is bad And all the things that make me happy make you feel sad Just when I think I've gone and got it down Turns out I'm still the same old dumbass clown Everything that feels good is bad And all the things that make me happy make you feel sad Everything that feels good is bad And all the things that make me happy make you feel sad

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