Disappear - Gee Baby4

Kiss me on my back Tell me all your fears 'Cause the rush of love is gone and I'm tryna' find out why it disappeared Why it disappeared I looked you in the eyes Don't feel nothin' here 'Cause the feeling of the love that I used to have Yeah, that shit's disappeared Yeah, that shit's disappeared Yeah, that shit's disappeared Yeah, that shit's disappeared Yeah, that shit's disappeared Do you remember Our love in November? That shit was so real But there's patches on my fingers that won't heal There's patches on my fingers that won't heal Why'd you have to fuckin' disappear? Why'd you have to fuckin' disappear? Why'd you disappear? Why'd you disappear? Why'd you disappear? Please come back Please come back Please come back Please come back

Daddy I've been thinkin' about you lately Mama's never here, step daddy hates me He drinks a lot, it makes him so mean Mama always screams and it gives me bad dreams Today I dropped my bowl of s'ghetti on the floor I didn't mean to make a mess, I tripped on one of my toys I tried to clean it up, really I tried But I just made it worse so I went to my room to hide I knew if Benny saw it I'd be in so much trouble I didn't want to, but I did And the thought of gettin' hit scared me so I didn't tell him Benny saw it, he took off his belt and You know... he hit me with it Then he pushed my face in to the carpet where the s'ghetti spilled it But I forgive him though I love you daddy, I guess I gotta go There's a moth on my window seal And it came to die alone Through the pain of the pouring rain I gaze into the storm And I imagine I'm the son of a man Who will hold me close and near With these bruises on my face I cry While I pray to disappear Daddy are you there? I know you're probably busy off working somewhere Helpin' somebody, build a house or somethin' neat You told me what you did, carpentry, right? Man, that's so cool, daddy I really miss you, so much that I would kiss you Yeah even front of my friends I guess you know I'm gettin' sick again I've been throwin' up, I haven't been playin' much I missed a lot of school this week, but I'm tough I'll make it, you know me, daddy I don't get what I want most of the time but I'm patient Hey if you get a second Maybe tomorrow you could come by just to check in Because my babysitter's crazy Mama don't believe me but she makes me get naked And I'm embarrassed so I hide it I'm tellin' you because you know my heart and what's inside it I gotta go to sleep but don't turn off the lights I love you daddy, or should I say Christ? There's a moth on my window seal And it came to die alone Through the pain of the pouring rain I gaze into the storm And I imagine I'm the son of a man Who will hold me close and near With these bruises on my face I cry While I pray to disappear When the weeping willow tree sways from the breeze I float away To the end of the world, to the moon, to the stars To the heavens where I'm safe I'm a child, not a prey, I'm an angel, enslaved I'm a life, I'm a world, I'm a rose, with the waste Wake me up, let me live, let me breathe, let me breathe Give me love, give me soul, give me guidance, give me peace

When I hear your voice Crazy thoughts wake up inside me My sun come down. I have no choice It's hard to breathe It's good that nobody can hear it It's only in my head This sucks that nobody can hear it It's hard for me but I can handle it Why does it hurt if there Is emptiness inside me? I fall to my knees and disappear I fall to my knees and disappear I fall to my knees and disappear And squeeze every breath Why does it hurt if there Is emptiness inside me? I fall to my knees and disappear And squeeze every breath It's good that nobody can hear it It's only in my head This sucks that nobody can hear it It's hard for me but I can I fall to my knees and disappear I fall to my knees and disappear I fall to my knees and disappear And squeeze every breath

It's funny how all I see is faces 'Be if I go away, I could disappear with no traces If I disappear from this world, would you think about me? And I know that it's selfish, but it's so funny That you never get the hints that I'll leave when I'm gone What's the cost, am I helpless? And you've always said I was the one for you When my time comes, know I did it all for you Said "Fuck you" once, now you on the loose Only the money that I make keep me off a noose If I disappear from your life, would you chase me? (Would you chase me?) Even if you don't feel the same, you better tell me (Fine) I don't wanna fall, or be lied to The songs that I write for you are saying "Help me" (Damn) Girl, let's talk it out, change it up for the one time (One time) You always tryna argue with me through the whole night I'll slide through when you need me, I won't pass by You know I'll always show up in the long ride (Shady) 'Cause, bitch, you my ride forever I don't wanna see you posted up with another man that's not me (Hello?) This money come clutch, but it's not enough, girl I need you here, I don't wanna feel this lonely (Ha) Whenever you around, it's a feeling that no other could create 'Cause your heart took away my blue (my blue) I wish we'd stay together, but I know our lifestyle is different But I wonder if we see that shit through But I would never let you go 'Cause you steady runnin' in my mind Can you tell me why it's always cold? It's 'cause you not right here by my side But I would never let you go 'Cause you steady runnin' in my mind Can you tell me why it's always cold? It's 'cause you not right here by my side If I disappear from this world, would you think about me? And I know that it's selfish but it's so funny That you never get the hints that I'll leave when I'm gone What's the cost, am I helpless? And you've always said I was the one for you When my time comes, know I did it all for you Said "Fuck you" once, now you on the loose Only the money that I make keep me off a noose

Just because you call my name I cannot hear, it's not the same I close my eyes and knock me back All the things that I have to have I know you're just a fallen king I can't believe what I had to say All the things you never said I'll never be what you want me to be Now I can't disappear, Now I can't Close your eyes and look at me I can't believe what I cannot see Everything is like you say Change your mind and you'll have to forgive And I can't disappear, now I can't, now I can't

Disappear! I remember the first time But it wasn't the last time that you told me that You'd take me back So I'm still wondering why It was ever a question Should've learned my lesson I keep coming back Like a heart attack That's always breaking I can't let you vanish There's no magic When you're gone You say you don't need me You say there's something beneath me I'm not gonna let you disappear (Disappear!) I don't wanna hear it I don't wanna believe it I'm not gonna let you disappear (Disappear!) Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Disappear! I don't wanna be lonely But you were always the only one Who cast the spell And make it feel like All of this was real Nothing but an illusion But I'm not gonna lose ya So just do your trick And make it quick 'Cause I'm pretending I can't let you vanish There's no magic When you're gone You say you don't need me You say there's something beneath me I'm not gonna let you disappear (Disappear!) I don't wanna hear it I don't wanna believe it I'm not gonna let you disappear (Disappear!) Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Disappear! Don't go! I can't let you vanish There's no magic When you're gone Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Disappear! You say you don't need me You say there's something beneath me I'm not gonna let you disappear (Disappear!) I don't wanna hear it I don't wanna believe it I'm not gonna let you disappear (Disappear!) Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Disappear! (Disappear!) Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Oh oh oh oh Disappear! (Disappear!) Don't go!