"Hi, Ian, it's mom Um, when you can just gimme- Gimme a call back when you have a chance, okay? Thank you for your text And, um, you have all my love and support And I'll help you any way I can, okay?" Here's a couple true facts I've discovered in life One, everything we do is highly incentivized By paternal conditions we could never predict Yeah, some things could be different, but still it is what it is And two, everyone is struggling to carry their burden This I know to be certain don't even question this sermon 'Cause three, insecurity is a common disease But it keeps us moving forward toward a common decree What do I have to say that I've avoided 'til today? What have I buried deep in my conscious? Forgive me 'cause I've been trying, I'm sorry I'm not like Ryan I wish I was like him, but it's just not who I am Who I am, who I am I'm sorry I'm not like Ryan I've been trying, I'm sorry I'm not like Ryan Four, the ego is always the fourth floor with a trap door So, we can never be that sure There's five people in my life who seem to get me But six people that I know still resent me My older brother Ryan is someone I keep trying to show That I can be a someone, you know? And my parents understand that I'm growing as a man Still I constantly wonder just what they think of who I am What do I have to say that I've avoided 'til today? What have I buried deep in my conscious? Forgive me 'cause I've been trying, I'm sorry I'm not like Ryan I wish I was like him, but it's just not who I am Who I am, who I am I'm sorry I'm not like Ryan I've been trying, I'm sorry I'm not like Ryan I've been trying, I'm sorry I'm not like Ryan I wish I was like him, but it's not who I am

Last night I laid awake inside my room I rewatched all my favorite movies 'til my boredom resumed I sent a message to this girl I met through tweet We ended up gettin' some coffee at this dump down the street We started out with the menu I was nervous but I liked her 'til She took a photo of her latte This is why I don't get out more I locked myself in my apartment, I don't need that bitch I turned my phone to airplane mode 'cause I don't need that shit All by alone, masturbated in my home so Get it up, gеt it up, oh, oh Get it up, get it up, ego I know a doctor who livеs up in Beverly Hills Ain't got much money but my insurance still covered the bill I went to visit on a day when I felt blue She gave me chocolates and I laid down on this couch in her room She started out with a question "What's your love life, like these days?" Well, I don't really use my heart much I use my hand more in the worst way I locked myself in my apartment, I don't need that bitch I turned my phone to airplane mode 'cause I don't need that shit All by alone, masturbated in my home so Get it up, get it up, oh, oh Get it up, get it up, ego Get it up, get it up, oh, oh Get it up, get it up, ego To be honest I feel alone as shit That's why I built this bridge to get over it I locked myself in my apartment, I don't need that bitch I turned my phone to airplane mode 'cause I don't need that shit All by alone, masturbated in my home so Get it up, get it up, oh, oh Get it up, get it up, ego I locked myself in my apartment, I don't need that bitch I turned my phone to airplane mode 'cause I don't need that shit All by alone, masturbated in my home so Get it up, get it up, oh, oh Get it up, get it up, ego Get it up, get it up, oh, oh Get it up, get it up, ego

I keep on having this dream where I'm seventeen Slipping through the cafeteria trying not to be seen I see my brother, he's sitting there with some kids He smiles at me and waves, I fake a smile and sit Down at the table, but something's off and I know it 'Cause when I try and say something nobody seems to take notice I kinda like it, but then I start to feel strange Like the time I went on Amazon to buy myself a date When did things get pixelated? I can't keep my concentration I've lost my imagination To such great expectations All the things that I never said They keep crawling back to me All the things that I never did They still haunt me in my dreams All the years I've spent All the lives I've faked Just to keep myself protected From all the things that I never said That I never said That I never said I keep a rolodex inside of my head of All the times I had a chance to just be honest, instead I made a joke to changed the subject because my confidence said "Hey, listen, if you mess this up They're gonna judge you, my friend!" I'm living in a state of pure paralysis, see I like to think, think, think, but my action is weak My interaction is bleak, if life's a herd, I'm a sheep Guess I'm not really that much different than at age seventeen When did things get pixelated? I can't keep my concentration I've lost my imagination To such great expectations All the things that I never said They keep crawling back to me All the things that I never did They still haunt me in my dreams All the years I've spent All the lives I've faked Just to keep myself protected From all the things that I never said That I never said That I never said All of the things we wish we said They drag me down until I'm dead You say the best is yet to come Can anyone figure out what's wrong with us? All the things that I never said They keep crawling back to me All the things that I never did They still haunt me in my dreams All the years I've spent All the lives I've faked Just to keep myself protected From all the things that I never said That I never said That I never said

Little darlin' don't you see the sun is shining Just for you only today If you hurry you can get a ray on you Come with me just to play Like every humming bird and bumblebee Every sunflower cloud and every tree I feel so much a part of this Nature's got me high and it's beautiful I'm with this deep eternal universe From death until rebirth This corner of the earth is like me in many ways I can sit for hours here and watch the emerald feathers play On the face of it I'm blessed When the sunlight comes for free I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me So inspired of that there's nothing left to do or say Think I'll dream, 'til the stars shine The wind it whispers and the clouds don't seem to care And I know inside that it's all mine It's the chorus of the breakin' dawn The mist that comes before the sun is born To a hazy afternoon in May Nature's got me high and it's so beautiful I'm with this deep eternal universe from death until rebirth You know that this corner of the earth is like me in many ways I can sit for hours here and watch the emerald feathers play On the face of it I'm blessed When the sunlight comes for free I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me This corner of the earth is like me in many ways I can sit for hours here and watch the emerald feathers play On the face of it I'm blessed When the sunlight comes for free I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me Hey I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me