Christ Alive My Toe Dammit Hurts - Hot Mulligan

(Fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking) It fucking hurts to be alive Oh, the disposable fragility of life And my identity is my mother died Anything to distract from being straight and white But I want to be the perfect mix Of everything fucked up you want to fix And my wokeness is a myth I'm oh, so desperate For your love And I just want you to love me I just want you to love me And oh, do you think of me? And I just want you to love me I just want you to love me And to control how you think of me So I'm listing all the qualities That make me seem a little more appealing No the future doesn't freak me out My boundary issues are solved And I'm seeing a therapist And I'm considering quitting plastics I've gone pescatarian And I'm curious And I'm into keeping my body fit I'm sex-positive And mysterious But am I the perfect mix Of everything fucked up you can't resist? My wokeness now so thick I'm trudging through it For your love And I just want you to love me I just want you to love me And oh, do you think of me? And I just want you to love me I just want you to love me Control how you think of me Standing in the spotlight now Not sure of what to say Maybe talk about how dating's weird Something where everyone can relate Okay Hey fellas, we can all admit dating during this Me Too movement's a little awkward (Ooh, ooh) You ever notice how the biggest dorks Are always the biggest freaks in bed? (Ooh, ooh) Every time I smoke weed, I tell ya what I get the munchies (Ooh, ooh) Oh, wah-ah-ah-ah! And I just want you to love me I just want you to love me Oh, do you love me?

It's alright To tell me What you think About me I won't try To argue Or hold it Against you I know that You're leavin' You must have Your reasons The season Is calling Your pictures Are falling down The steps that I retrace The sad look On your face The timing And structure Did you hear He loves her? A day late A buck short I'm writing The report On losing And failing When I move I'm flailing now And it's happened once again I'll turn to a friend Someone who understands And sees through the master plan (When) everybody's gone And I've been here for too long To face this on my own Well, I guess this is growing up And maybe I'll see you At a movie Sneak preview You'll show up And walk by On the arm Of that guy And I'll smile And you'll wave We'll pretend That it's okay The charade It won't last When he's gone I won't come back And it'll happen once again You'll turn to a friend Someone who understands Sees through the master plan (When) everybody's gone You've been here for too long To face this on your own Well, I guess this is growing up Well, I guess this is growing up Mmm-mmm, mmm-mmm-mmh This is growing up

And now the purple dusk of twilight time Steals across the meadows of my heart High up in the sky the little stars climb Always reminding me that we're apart You wander down the lane and far away Leaving me a song that will not die Love is now the stardust of yesterday The music of the years gone by. Sometimes I wonder, how I spend The lonely nights Dreaming of a song The melody Haunts my reverie And I am once again with you When our love was new And each kiss an inspiration But that was long ago And now my consolation is in the stardust of a song Besides the garden wall, when stars are bright You are in my arms The nightingale Tells his fairytale Of paradise, where roses grew Though I dream in vain In my heart it will remain My stardust melody The memory of love's refrain.