You haven't been yourself in a while now Forgot what you said to yourself last week You wouldn't be this person acting crazy Are you broken? Maybe I should slow it down I should breathe in Sit tight, you'll fix it when you're supposed to It's all right they don't know what you go through Feel you hesitate, made from my mistakes Only can blame myself But is it suicide or sabotage you think? Cause I feel you slipping Far from me, fading slowly Every time I hurt myself I push away your help And you know my soul is empty Is it suicide or sabotage you think? I see it in my blood, it's dripping in the sink Is it suicide or sabotage you think? Cause I feel you slipping Another night spent alone Been a month since you felt something Oh you never thought that you would be like this? You medicate every day that she spends with him But sit tight, you'll fix it when you're supposed to It's alright they don't know what you go through Poison every day coursing through your veins Only can blame myself And now you're just so Far from me, fading slowly Every time I hurt myself I push away your help And you know my soul is empty Is it suicide or sabotage you think? I see it in my blood, it's dripping in the sink Is it suicide or sabotage you think? Cause I feel you slipping I feel in my veins And I hear it in my dreams But is it suicide or sabotage you think? I see it in my blood, it's dripping in the sink Is it suicide or sabotage Cause my body's breaking down And now you feel so Far from me, Fading slowly Every time I hurt myself I push away your help And you know my soul is empty Is it suicide or sabotage you think? I see it in my blood, it's dripping in the sink Is it suicide or sabotage you think? Cause I feel you slipping

Oh sweet delirium - So drenched in burning lithium This sickness seems to never ease - In the waking state we drift within ...and we just fall Deeper Into The twisting sands of thought We are deceived - By the mirage our minds create Fowl is the taste - Of thought upon the thinkers tongue What's the reprieve? A stillness I can't find? O full of scorpions is my mind If I just close my eyes Let Hypnos hold my mind Will sleep erode the blue inside? Deeper into the well of dreams I - Sink Desert of dreaming - Show me that which I seek An oasis where I'm simply free If I just close my eyes Let Hypnos hold my mind Will sleep erode the blue inside? So gifted are we - With flying thoughts? But every arrow that flies feels the pull of the earth Just to float for a second in bliss Just to drift within a little remiss Just to let go

Lucid, at the edge of the sky The blood moon calls to me As the sun burns out its light Numina: hold my hands, whilst I dance with entropy I can't bear to feel your sultry grip slip away from me Please don't let go, don't let me fall Into the darkness Into the angst and woe The angst and woe Into the angst and woe "Breathe," she says "Breath in the night..." The cold air will open your eyes To the other side, the other side of the divine "Bliss will not escort you through this forlorn abyss But wisdom and perception will greet you at the rift" "Heed these words, for once you flourish they will not last There's only so much sand in an hourglass" "Once you make the fall, all light will disappear This darkness will entomb you You'll find love with achlyss" This darkness will entomb you You'll find love Spiraling Endlessly Is this what it takes for ourselves to be free? If I give in to everything Will I be one with the mantra within? To kiss the lips of melancholy To hold hands with the mist of grief The echoes of the ancient ones, bid me to dance with death Everything, everything I loved was merely the shadow of youth My soul's voice calls out to Shiva Present to me your eternal mantra

The devils dance with me as I descend Such beauty smothers me; Euphoric dissonance Unmask the beauty in the abyss Where the ones with no eyes, sing elegies at my feet I dared to fix my eyes upon the light I stared so deep my vision was consumed And as I observed what it held in its depths The dreams i had lost Began to bloom Began to bloom Began to bloom Began to bloom Its creation, omniscient Such as the scattered leaves of time Its elegance fused in such a way That what i now describe Is but a glimmer of that light My thoughts, like black smoke, arose from my skull And shattered the sky that once shone above A broken symphony calls to me from the flames A haunting orchestra caressing the dreams i crave When I got lost in depths Their minds got lost in the flood I yearn for what they fear for, what they fear for Purgatory my love, take my soul and set it free I yearn for what they fear for, what they fear for When I got lost in depths Their minds got lost in the flood I yearn for what they fear for, what they fear for Purgatory my love, take my soul and set it free I yearn for what they fear for, what they fear for It was only in the nocturne, that she came to me A constricted figment of my discoveries A solemn guide that knew me better than I Who let me out of this pathetic lullaby Purgatory's calling out to me It was only in the nocturne that I came to her An unbound spirit from the mind of sepulchre When I got lost in depths Their minds got lost in the flood I yearn for what they fear for, what they fear for Purgatory my love, take my soul and set it free I yearn for what they fear for, what they fear for When I got lost in the depths, their minds lost in the flood Purgatory my love, take my soul and set it free Devil! Show me the light Devil! Can you show me the light? Devil! Let me indulge in the blight

I bid my mind and body to drop off To rise clear of even the finest dust, the finest dust I see the essence, my first awakening A transmission of light is beckoning me, beckoning me "Do you feel the trees, sway beneath The ebb and flowing winds of maturity? Do you feel the breeze, shift with ease Kiss the sun and reflect your life in the leaves? Would you believe that this subtle dream Has more truth than reality could ever deem? Water the seed, let the lotus breathe It reveals the true nature of you and me" It reveals the true nature of you and me I run my hands through the air and although there's nothing there I'm forming liquid thoughts in my fingers And seeing glimpses of the truth out there A hedonistic discovery, drowned in reality What is this mystery that slips away As these words spill from my lips? Why do you grant me these mosaic eyes? What is this mystery that slips away As these words spill from my lips? Why do you grant me, why do you grant me these mosaic eyes? What is this mystery that slips away? So blinded by the sun, my eyes refused to see the night Perhaps if i embrace the elder moon I'll understand what's wrong and right I've felt the wisdom of the kenshō, i hold faith in what was told But as I leave the seed My once mothering womb, for the first time I felt the cold We emancipate and then suffocate We emancipate and then suffocate We emancipate and then suffocate

Obscure reflections stare back at me Through the tainted water Neglected exposure I am the product of this distorted culture Eclipsed by my antic disposition I'm merely an illusionary shell fed to chimeras Fragmented constructs of a fluorescent realm Incept a twilight and destruct the elms A collective myopic gaze entrances us all Oh how i pity this despondent existence The lustrous phantom; Speaks of tongues obscured The pale lumiére; Speaks of eyes deluded My innocence was stolen by the birds who couldn't see Singing sonnets as the earth stood still and screamed And at the end of it all I was torn from my soul Begging that one day I might be whole And at the end of it all I might be whole I set my heart ablaze and watched it flare nihility But then the gateway appeared to me And showed me the path That would reconstruct my life That would purge this condition And understand my disdain This world is nothing more Than the quintessence of dust Show me how to rid myself of the shadows that lurk inside of me And at the start of it all I was torn from soul Begging that one day In time I might be whole Show me how to rid myself of the shadows that lurk inside of me

With silken hands placed upon the lungs of the earth I scale the labyrinth Inhale and everything stops Exhale and I feel the wind beat down upon my face (Upon my face) The sunset flares as the wind tears Through the amber blades with pace I reach up, hold hands with the energy All fear collapses as I dance with ecstasy Dragging myself up through the branches of life The evening breeze soothes my frail mind The setting sun breathes through the bitten leaves Enticing our hearts toward the unseen Ascend towards the cracking sky The subtle joys of climbing high Directional limbs and vectors within The heart of the elm beats with me synchronously It's so easy to get lost With so many paths to wander across But if we close our eyes and feel the gravity Put our faith in intuition We'll breach the canopy Om Kham Brahma Om Kham Brahma Breach the canopy (Atoms burn within the melting sap) (Elucidating wisdom of where not to grasp) Atoms burn within the melting sap Elucidating wisdom of where not to grasp As Gaia bathes me in her primordial state I feel the roots below shift tectonic plates Atomic conflagration pries open the clouds Gliding towards the crown I breach the leaves and their lotus flowers I peer out upon the earth At the beauty from my eternal perch Ascend towards the cracking sky The subtle joys of climbing high Directional limbs and vectors within The heart of the elm beats with me synchronously This is everything and anything An encounter with the astral glow The infant mind materialised No fear, no hate, no woe