Bella - Outlaw

For what you're given For what you'll take Along I'll trade you anything you want Hold me! Hold me! Where is the optimist? Does he abide in me? Help me! I'll trade you anything you want! Nothing ever changes, nothing makes it better Harvest spoiled when it froze Maybe I complain too much, maybe this is fine But why plant seeds when nothing grows? This dead field has nothing left for me This dead field is all it will ever be But nothing ever changes, nothing makes it better But why plant seeds when nothing grows? For what you're given For what you'll take Along I'll trade you anything you want Hold me! Hold me! Where is the optimist? Does he abide in me? Help me! I'll trade you anything you want! Look what I spy with my little eye, block watch! Somebody asked me if I'm autistic, I'm autistic as shit!

And I still hear everything These voices only speak of me Corresponding tormented lecture This mourning came and all were lowered Fixated on each empty vessel I calmly sound out every verse I alone am honed in on each breaking gap, the way each plea just falls onto the floor Organs spill into the mouth of god He never says a fucking word Lowered The constant spasm finds its pace Covered in the stench of harboring decay And no one hears a fucking thing And no one cares enough to see My sins sprawling out in front of me My sins sprawling out in front of me But they were always mine to keep I can feel the maggot feed I can feel your every move The way your voice still fills the room Talking in tongues A language I can't define All of your anguish is mine Talking in tongues A language I can't define All of your anguish is mine I feel your every move All of your anguish is mine The voices fill the room Let all your anguish be mine

To a man faced with death The reserve note is key No solution in sight It all falls on me What's a man to do It's either death or it's greed Watch the innocent suffer Watch the innocent bleed Life on your back Not a single fighting chance It's all set and planned So with the devil I shall dance Time's rendered dry So completion comes first Nothing difficult Leave every witness in the dirt I pound my head against the wall Trying so hard to please them all Preservation instinct And the will to survive Idealistic visions Keep the last hope alive Let's not sensationalize Desperate measures for desperate times If all else fails Maybe I'll still have relief You can catch me in the headlines Morals and empathy killed the thief At the end of the day If you show them your trust They'll show your back a blade Simple, good intentions Are paving the way Maybe hell ain't so bad Now that home is a fucking cage

Cut and run Purify the marrow Drain the wound and look ahead In the wake of absence I am all that's left This justifies everything I did This is a necessary evil A means to an end Make your exit Never out alive Sufferer in time Pull each root from underneath Reach in and cut into me So let the guilty hang Feed long-pig to the starved Teeth only cut deeper So follow the leader Fall into the spiral Swallow the flesh This is a matter of survival This is life or death Instincts burrow into each nerve And to nothing you always return The connection is lost The connection is lost The connection is lost The connection is lost Why am I always lost? In the famine I am God This is where I'm better off The connection is lost Your child is gone Now he's a man and a man pays his debts Problems bring perspective This helps me forget It justifies all that I am All that I am Rectify and burn I always return It takes control of me I can never leave Animal again What has always been I am the king of sin My pain is constant This is embodiment I am the king of sin My pain is constant This is embodiment I am the king of sin My pain is constant This is embodiment I am the king of sin

Who is that at my window? Figures dissolve in all I listen as the wind blows I'm staring at the walls Welcome unknown complexions With nervous bouts of tension Invasive complications In every strangers words Hidden intent awakens Each time my back is turned Let nothing manifest Can't ever lose my grip Take out every threat Always two steps ahead I gotta stay in check Distant ringing slaves away And i just can't maintain Every notion lingers But they won't have their say I will replace them all They're gone without a trace Let nothing manifest Play it close to the chest Can't make out enemies So I keep friends next to me I'll never let them leave Nobody gets to leave Four walls just staring back at me Nobody ever gets to leave You are all now a part of me At night I can't sleep, I toss and turn Candlesticks in the dark, visions of bodies being burned At night I can't sleep, I toss and turn Candlesticks in the dark, visions of bodies being burned At night I can't sleep, I can't sleep Four walls just staring back at me At night I can't sleep My mind is playing tricks on me